I'm Back

[mrsmisfit]

I joined this site Last October, my first time ever going thru W/d's. I took about 6-7 10MG Hydro daily for 4 years. I did it, I made it 3 months, I felt so good. I was out drinking with a friend in Jan of this year and stupid stupid me. She had some and I asked her for one. I thought I could handle 1 right? It started with a few here and there after just that 1 (grrrr). Then bumped up to a couple daily than right back to where I freakin started.

I'm on day one today all over again. 9 months later.I'm glad to be back you guys helped me through it the first time. I couldn't have made it through. I'm just so embarrassed that I thought my addiction wasn't that bad after all I read. I'm going to stay on here forever, just because I stop for three months doesn't mean I'm not addicted anymore. I just wish I knew that 9 mos ago, I'd be feeling so much better. I forgot this feeling.  I know it wasn't a lot as most daily, but I'm really hurting today. Thanks for still being here for me

[daisy699]

Well welcome back!! You are so not alone in slipping into the "well I've gone this long now I know how to use JUST ONCE"!! I'm sure everyone on this forum has made the same exact mistake you did just try to learn from it!! Like posted above at least it was only 9mos and not years of damage again!! This forum is definately very helpful I'm like 103 days clean now but only found it after about 69 days and sure wish I had this support at day 1 but everything happens when it happens for a reason!! Hang tough and keep posting..Daisy

[plzhlpme1]

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[plzhlpme1]

so sorry ...i was there too many times to count thin king just 1 would be ok...and thinking i would be able to control it because it was so little. unfortunately i am still fighting this battle it has been on and off for 5 years and this time i want to really be done!! i am tapering but, it seems to be dragging out???  My suggestion is to start a journal RIGHT NOW noting everything you are feeling and thinking so when the monster comes around again you have something to refer to  showing and hopefully reminding you of how horrible it is to stop once you get going..! and remember its NEVER just 1!! Good luck to you and be strong!! it happens to the best of us.....

[gizzy32]

Welcome back:) I can't tell you how many times I thought using just once would be ok and would not be a problem, but we learn the hard way huh. It sounds like you learned something from this so don't make the same mistakes. Alcohol was always a big trigger for my drug use, so we have to be careful.

Congrats on doing this again, sorry your hurting right now, but it will get better in a few days. Have you ever tried the thomas recipe to help with w/d's? Good luck and keep posting, support is so important.

[sid3]

No need to feel embarassed. Just be glad you got back here after nine months instead of nine years. Seriously, it only would have gotten worse. You know what to expect, and now know that just 1 more isn't possible....Welcome back. Hope it's the last time