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Need support
I have been addicted to opiates for a very long time. Currently I am taking anywhere from 10-25 hydrocodone a day. It's ruining my life and I want to stop! I need to speak with others who are going through or have gone through this themselves.
Good luck! Opiates were my doc also, so I know what you are going through. Good luck with your taper...Keep posting so we know how you are doing. We've all been where you are...we're all addicts, and you've come to the right place. Welcome friend. God Bless.
Hey Down...welcome. Hydro was my DOC also & i've been CT 14 days. CT was Dante's Inferno for a week physically & now i'm battling the "dumb dumbs" as i call them. You can expect it as well. I've poured water in the trash, put a microwave pizza in the oven...the list goes on. Stared at the walls with no idea why.
I agree with you on someone pushing pills at a meeting...open a can of whoop a$$. I probably shouldn't advocate violence...there's probably a MH forum on anger issues.
I agree with you on someone pushing pills at a meeting...open a can of whoop a$$. I probably shouldn't advocate violence...there's probably a MH forum on anger issues.
Well I just want to lend you some support as a long time user myself..You got some great advise from above. I think Kyle hit all areas. Just take it min by min and make sure you do drink plenty of fluids to help flush the poisons out..You should start taking some good vit/min too. There is so much to this disease. The detox will be over soon, but it is fighting to stay clean that takes the cake..This Journey into our recovery was not meant to be walked alone..Get all the Support you can..I sure wish you the Best that Life can give you..
Bless
Bless
You can find people dealing pills anywhere, including church. This shouldn't be an excuse to not go to meetings. I've seen others write the same thing, and then they disappear from the forum, never to be seen again.
Find out for yourself. Don't give in to the crap that your head is feeding you.
Get to a meeting.
K
Find out for yourself. Don't give in to the crap that your head is feeding you.
Get to a meeting.
K
I'm on day 6 after failed taper but I'm doing it and so can you. Watch that mind games. I think with taper they were worst. Actually the mind game is still struggle but one I'm going to do. Also people here are so good just listen with open mind.
Bring it on Down my friend. You are doing great so far. You have told you secret and are now accountable to another human being. You have your mind made up, have begun a taper and have the wife doling out the meds. AWESOME! So now you must CUT YOUR SOURCES! In my opinion, the most important step. If you buy them, delete all the numbers you have and tell "friends" you will not be giving them your hard earned money anymore. If you have a script, you must tell your doctor about your addiction and have him cancel any refills. He will help you with comfort meds and you can gather all the supplies for the Thomas Recipe, a w/d regimen, listed below under "most viewed health pages" Research your options for NA/AA/Private Consult. You should go to at least one meeting to see if your imaginary dealers are there. Chances are they aren't. You will never know until you try it! Keep posting and let us know your progress. Good wishes and prayers to you.
Bring it on Down my friend. You are doing great so far. You have told you secret and are now accountable to another human being. You have your mind made up, have begun a taper and have the wife doling out the meds. AWESOME! So now you must CUT YOUR SOURCES! In my opinion, the most important step. If you buy them, delete all the numbers you have and tell "friends" you will not be giving them your hard earned money anymore. If you have a script, you must tell your doctor about your addiction and have him cancel any refills. He will help you with comfort meds and you can gather all the supplies for the Thomas Recipe, a w/d regimen, listed below under "most viewed health pages" Research your options for NA/AA/Private Consult. You should go to at least one meeting to see if your imaginary dealers are there. Chances are they aren't. You will never know until you try it! Keep posting and let us know your progress. Good wishes and prayers to you.
Ok I've heard from some people and so far I feel like I'm making or taking the appropriate action. My wife is acting as my coach and currently is in control of my "taper" period. I'm so glad she didn't just kick my sorry *** out. Thanks everyone for the support. I will be posting periodically with my progress. My mind is swimming today and I've already found myself saying things that make no sense at all. Feeling kind of dumb today for sure. My minds made up... That being said... Bring it on!
I have made a few inquiries about the NA programs in my area and I feel this may be the way I need to go for support. However In my experience I've known of ppl actually dealing pills at these meetings. I'm of the mind right now that I would physically punish the poor sole for trying. Comments anyone?
I have made a few inquiries about the NA programs in my area and I feel this may be the way I need to go for support. However In my experience I've known of ppl actually dealing pills at these meetings. I'm of the mind right now that I would physically punish the poor sole for trying. Comments anyone?
good for you! You have taken the first steps for getting clean. Don't be ashamed..be proud you know you need help. Lots of that here. Listen to those who have shared their vast experience. Keep coming here, read..read..read! Keep posting so we can help.
I failed for over 15 years. I've been clean now for two. Although we are all different, as addicts, we are all the same. Is now your time? Only you can answer that, and it will be an on going answer.
And deep down, you know how to get clean, but STAYING clean is the trick. There is an old saying - if you don't learn from your past you are doomed to repeat it. So, I did three things, and I did them while I was in detox hell - first, cut your sources. Set up roadblocks so you can't access meds, ever. Next, tell your secret. Sounds like you've done that, and don't worry - your wife will eventually come around, and, if she's a smoker, had over eating issues, etc., then she has also experienced addiction. You will need her, your doc, trusted family members as a support system. Finally, get after care. Go to NA meetings and find a sponsor. Your support system is fine, but you need to talk to other addicts, people who'll call you on your bs or lies.
After all of those years of failure the three steps worked for me. Maybe they can help you. And as far as tapering goes, very few addicts are able to taper without someone we trust being there to help. You have to get a taper plan from your doc, then have a family member or friend give you the pills, per the plan, and then hide the rest. Tapering helps your body, but draws out the mental aspect of detox. Finally, the mental struggle of getting and staying clean is a life long task. Your head will never stop talking to you; things like "just one won't hurt", "I worked hard/had something horrible happen/had something wonderful happen so I need a little break", and the best one is "I've been clean for X, so now I can take the meds without getting back in to the rut". All lies, all things that you've probably already experienced.
Wow...Sorry about the rambling, but there is so much to share. Getting and staying clean isn't easy, but living a clean life is wonderful, that's a promise. Stick around, keep posting. You'll know when it's your time.
K
And deep down, you know how to get clean, but STAYING clean is the trick. There is an old saying - if you don't learn from your past you are doomed to repeat it. So, I did three things, and I did them while I was in detox hell - first, cut your sources. Set up roadblocks so you can't access meds, ever. Next, tell your secret. Sounds like you've done that, and don't worry - your wife will eventually come around, and, if she's a smoker, had over eating issues, etc., then she has also experienced addiction. You will need her, your doc, trusted family members as a support system. Finally, get after care. Go to NA meetings and find a sponsor. Your support system is fine, but you need to talk to other addicts, people who'll call you on your bs or lies.
After all of those years of failure the three steps worked for me. Maybe they can help you. And as far as tapering goes, very few addicts are able to taper without someone we trust being there to help. You have to get a taper plan from your doc, then have a family member or friend give you the pills, per the plan, and then hide the rest. Tapering helps your body, but draws out the mental aspect of detox. Finally, the mental struggle of getting and staying clean is a life long task. Your head will never stop talking to you; things like "just one won't hurt", "I worked hard/had something horrible happen/had something wonderful happen so I need a little break", and the best one is "I've been clean for X, so now I can take the meds without getting back in to the rut". All lies, all things that you've probably already experienced.
Wow...Sorry about the rambling, but there is so much to share. Getting and staying clean isn't easy, but living a clean life is wonderful, that's a promise. Stick around, keep posting. You'll know when it's your time.
K
Ashamed???? Sir I think your doing what you are doing is commendable. Yes you have been dishonest with your loved ones but and that is just how we are. Just coming clean with them takes a lot of. Integrity.. I could tell you some stories lol... I am a recovering heroin addict and have a first hand knowledge of the chaos addiction can cause... I ended up getting on suboxone which got the needle out of my arm however after a time seperated from the heroin I found myself physically dependent on suboxone. I was out of town and found I didn't have what I needed and bam... Sick.... Again.... It was a wake up for me so I tapered down and 7 days ago quit. It has been a rough experience but I have to tell you its a small price to pay for getting my life back... I get to feel again and it is raw, true, and so very intense. If you want to stop you can. You owe it to yourself to feel again. At first you will just want relief. That feeling kills more opiate addicts than you can imagine. Sir you have to know that those who have died would've done it all different if only they had one more chance. I live in Texas as well and would be willing to talk with you if you should want my number. You and I are men of integrity and we can help es h other as well as countless others just like us. Life will never be the same if you decide to clean up. I am here for you.. che
I have been living a lie. Hiding my addiction from my loved ones. Recently I came clean with my wife of 23 years and as you can imagine she is completely devastated. I'm ashamed of myself for letting this get out of hand.
I appreciate you responding. One day at a time!
I appreciate you responding. One day at a time!
No it isn't. Let's start. You wanna quit. Can you taper to the point that either your body can handle detox better ? Your mind is a way different process. You will go through a physical process getting rid of the drugs. I enjoy being high... until it controlled me... and it did. I will be honest, in this process you will WANT the drugs again... you will search the house etc. well, I was prescribed so didn't have the 'phone call away' thing.. which is worse. I didn't have access, you will have to be strong... I want to ask you.. HOW SICK AND TIRED ARE YOU... that is what is comes down to. do you want to do this forever My advice... at age 56... quit honey.... I wish I could do it for you... I really do... but this life... it is no life.... YOU have to choose... please try. at least give it a week... I want you to have a life...what you do now.... either get medical help or stock up on what others have done and go cold turkey.... 3 choices there guy.... either way, this forum will be here sending support...
I know what needs to be done, but unsure on how to
proceed. I enjoy being "high" and always have.
When I was younger I smoked pot. From 14 to 34 yrs old.
And one day I quit cold turkey. But as you know,
this type of addiction is not nearly as easily kicked.
I'm male 43 years old from east Texas.
proceed. I enjoy being "high" and always have.
When I was younger I smoked pot. From 14 to 34 yrs old.
And one day I quit cold turkey. But as you know,
this type of addiction is not nearly as easily kicked.
I'm male 43 years old from east Texas.
Hi. been there too. what are your thoughts? I detoxed from fentanyl and hydrocodone. You can get off. Tell us where you are. I was medically prescribed and cut off. I was in a bad place while using though so it was something I needed to do. you will be uncomfortable during withdrawals.. that is the nature of the beast. you can do it if you want... we have and you will. think... what your life is now... is it worth it? no... and it is so much better without.... gotta get to the other side my friend... talk... get a plan and start... I repeat myself but I want to say it... life is so much better without... Lord, the comparison is unbelievable... let's do this.... talk....
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