I posted this morning, i am going through some bad stuff, and i know my post from last week was removed, but, i was in alot of issues, husband being abusive, etc. but now no one wants to talk to me. I thought you guys were on here to help people, not ignore them. I thought the Forum was supposed to help people through w/d's and bad times, well, im having a bad time............so you ignore me................i am truly hurt, this is one place i can vent, so i vented, and now no one wants to talk to me...tired of oxys, where are you girl, i need to hear from you. Im am truly crushed............im sorry about posting that nite, but my husband was totally out of control, i need to get to that doctor for my back, and get better. You all seem like your upset with me, whats the deal, ive seen worse posts on here, alot worse...talk to me somebody. thanks ................a whole bunch
I'm glad to hear your finally going to take a few days away and go to some meetings with your sister. I think if your comfortable you might want to share your story and get some feedback from the people there. There's a really good chance that one or more of the women have been right in your shoes and can share some insight and advice on how to go about turning your life around. Is there any way you could stay with your sister for awhile? I just hate to think of you spending even one more day in the environment your in. I know how bad you WANT him to care. I remember crying and thinking how the hell can you treat me like this? Why don't you love me enough to stop? And those thoughts would fuel my own depression and make me feel worse about myself. A vicious cycle for sure. Thing is it has nothing to do with you. I know that sounds wrong but this is a problem HE has with himself that he projects onto you. He takes all that self hate, loathing, guilt and sorrow and turns it on you and you internalize every bit of it. It makes him feel better to lash out and blame everyone else then to have to face the truth about himself. You cannot move forward in recovery or in life while tied to a situation thats destroying you in every way. See if you can stay at your sisters and go to meetings with her and get help. Nothing changes if nothing changes, you need to be the one to shake things up and take control of your recovery. Yes it's frightening and I know how hard it is to admit that it's done but I promise that by leaving you will open many doors for yourself. Staying in a toxic relationship will just slowly destroy you. I pray you get out of there asap.