Day 19 and tempted at work

[ribs2k]

Please help. I can't possibly throw this away

[Pat1956100]

I am going to the store to buy m&m's.

[wransomejr]

Man you are now starting the phase where the mind games will really play tricks on you. There is an empty spot the pills used to fill. Stay strong. Cravings always pass. When they start the candy is a good idea and bring out your most difficult project to work on. If this tendency doesn't moderate in a month or two think about n/a or counseling. -Randy

[ribs2k]

Thanks, it was hard but I got on here and typed furiously and they talked me down. (peanut m & M's). I am very glad for that. I was definately on the brink. I feel stronger having resisted the strongest urge so far. I am a little worried that my counselor decided she needs to tell my Oncologist in case my cold turkey quitting of oxy will effect my last 2 treatments,(not chemo but a trial drug). Hopeful they are understanding.

[dominosarah]

Great job on getting thru the day!!!  Now do the same thing tomorrow~~

[Pat1956100]

Hey hun,
Soooo proud of you that you resisted.  It is so not worth it.  One pill would not have been enough.  Before you know it you would be taking more.
It's a demon and keeps at you.  I will be back clean again soon.  I haven't felt good at all since I relapsed, even while taking them.  It starts with1 and then 2 and before I knew it I was taking 3 and 4 etc. I just felt sad and defeated for the whole week.  Keep strong.  I admire you so much.
Pat

[Free2agoodhome]

take it an hour at a time...nibble food,,,even junk food..get some sun....think "what a wonderful life i have in store" youre gonna make it.....guaranteed......prayers sent your way,,

peace

[akitagurl12]

i am so proud of you!!!!!  i have to see the guy i used to get mine from every day at work too.  In the beginning I would go into a full fledge craving attack at just the sound of his voice.  It has started to slowly get better though, and it will get easier & better for you too. You are doing awesome:)

[Fireby29]

Good job ribs, stay strong!

Bryan

[ribs2k]

Thanks minn

[minn66]

Exactly! One day at a time. Like the song says, Just hold on one more day. And you did!

[ribs2k]

Thanks Stacy. I got through today thats whats important

[Stacy_Lynn]

U got this dear!!! Don't let those devil pills ruin for what u have worked so hard for!!! U know the second u slip u will have major regret & i know u don't want that! Thinking of u!

[ribs2k]

He hasn't offered it but he sits near by. I haven't said anything. I figured he'd get the hint when I don't ask for any for 3 weeks.

[minn66]

Did the person offer you some or were you just having a rough day and was tempted? It is good that you are seeing your counselor today. I am very proud of you for posting here and eating those M& M's instead of taking something :)

[dominosarah]

Have you confronted this guy and told him you are clean now and to leave you alone?

[doitformyson]

good job!!!!  I can't tell you how many times the same thing happened to me either at work or out doing something....about 15 snickers bars worth of times!

[minn66]

Whoohoo!!! You did it! Crisis averted ;) You made it through this test. You know you're strong enough!

[ribs2k]

The guy who used to supply me just left for the day. I am home free now. Thank you Thank You all. Whew that was really close. I see a counselor this afternoon. Hopefully she helps with some tools to handle that,

[dominosarah]

I love peanut M&M's but i dont have enough teeth to chew the dam things!!  lol

[ribs2k]

I got this! Thanks for the help. The sugar crash will get me though lol.

[minn66]

M&M's... Yum! Peanut ones are my faves. Enjoy that treat. You can make it until you have to leave. You WILL make it!

[ribs2k]

You are right IT IS NOT AN OPTION!!!!!

[dominosarah]

Using is not an option here, staying strong and getting thru this is.  Keep munching on those M&M's!

[ribs2k]

The good news is that I have to leave for a dr's appointment in an hour and a half. That's all I have to make it.