Not my day

[Kelseago]

Today has been bad from the start. My was not great. I actually all night about me in different situations having anxiety attacks. Ugh. I actually woke up with a stress rash!  I notice I'm forgetting things :-/. I forgot laundry, of all things. I forgot to dry my daughters uniform. I had to throw it in this morn, it was mostly dry. I felt so bad.  I crawled back in bed after she left. I just can't make myself do anything. I have my next meeting today and I'm worried I'm gonna show up with this horrible rash..

[ImDONENoMore]

Try and treat yourself like you would a family member or very good friend who was ill.  Baby yourself as much as possible and go easy on yourself.  Don't expect anything right now - that way, if you do begin to feel a little better, you will be SO grateful.  I found if I placed my expectations for feeling better too high, it only made me feel worse.

You're going to be miserable for a while, there's just no way around that.  So just treat yourself as gently as possible like you might if you actually had the flu.  And stay low and if you need to be more quiet than usual, that's okay too.  Your family, after this has passed, will be so grateful to have the real you back that they won't care what it took to get you well and this time will soon become a distant and faded memory for them.  Hang in there and just go slow.  You'll get through this, maybe slowly, but you will. :)

[Kelseago]

Gary, thanks for the funny mental picture of some guy yodeling around florida. I actually smiled :). "this too shall pass". I just keep tellibg myself that

[Kelseago]

I know i should get up and paint but I just don't want to today. I did yesterday. I just wanna lay in bed and chill with my baby boy, which I'm sure he won't let me do for long.

[swflafun]

Kelseago - Can't say I ever did day 6 (again), I never made it past day 5..5 times. My 6th attempt was the charm. The dazed and confused week was very stressful. Anxiety ate at my brain like a rodent on a block of cheese. The "stupids" were just downright horrible. BUT, everyday seemed to be better than the previous one, kept me motivated and focused.

I have a beer or two at night, but don't drink to get drunk as I have for 26 years. Major improvement for me.

After day 14, I was a new person. I really feel that the second week was tougher than the WDs. Done those enough to get very familiar with them. I was caught way off guard the second week and was a basket case. Just hang in, it will get better. My brain is rebounding like nobodies business. What a wondeful feeling to wake up and WANT to face the day without dope. Hard to grasp a few weeks ago, but it is the truth. Stick to the path, you have some pretty good bumps coming. I hope to see you posting in two weeks about how wonderful you are feeling. I feel like going yodeling across the mountaintops. :-) and there ain't no mountains in SW Fla.... ;-0

Gary

[Katrina81]

Hang in there Kels. It will get better. I know the wait for it to get better is hard exhausting and just no fun. Please go to ur meeting. Its the best place to be when ur having an off day. They will welcome u and support u rash and all  ;) Your doing a great job. Can u force ur self to paint a little?

[Kelseago]

Hey Gary, it's good to know it's not just me. I'm on day 6 (again). In the past I would just take a drink when I was stressing through WD. I decided I can't do that this time. I just feel bad for my kids. I'm not being a very good mom right now. I hope this passes soon. My husband is being very supportive but he just doesn't really understand. He keeps asking am I so stressed, i just can't give him an answer her can understand. I'm rambling....thanks

[swflafun]

Hi Kelseago - I'm not sure what day you are on, but after I got through the physical WDs, the second week was very disorienting. It may be just me, but I was "dazed and confused" as my body readjusted to life without using. Example: I would be driving to work and just totally forget where I was, where I was going, etc. Somehwat frightening, but it does pass. Those were some tough days to me as I could only think that if I had one more pill I could figure it all out. Not a chance I was doing that. After day 12-13, I was as back to "normal" as I can recall. Still have some cravings and anxiety, but they are becoming less and less frequent. My attitude has done a comple 180.

Sounds like you may be in the same boat as I was. It stinks, but just keep focused on being DONE using.

Sleep is still elusive, but is slowly coming back. Time has changed. During WDs it seemed to move backwards. During my week of confusion, it was the same. Now it is just whistling by at such a rapid rate, I never have enough of it.

Hang in, it's not an easy ride, but it is so worth it.

Gary
Day 21