Opiate withdrawal support

[pepper1107]

Hello,

I found this site a week or so ago and began reading the posts.  I was so excited to see what my life could be without any pain meds.  Short story long, I had a child in 2003 and began suffering from ovarian pain and fibroids about 6 months into 2004.  At that time off and on I was prescribed a number of meds but eventually vicoden was just the drug that fixed the problem,  Imagine that,  In 2007 I had a lap and then a hysterectomy when the pain did not go away.  I wanted my life back and I was looking forward to waking up after the hysterectomy and not needing meds.  Well, when I woke up , yes my abdominal problems were gone other than surgery rehab but for some reason I could not open my mouth.  Well by some crazy turn of events, my jaw was dislocated during surgery. (breathing tube) I did well not taking any meds for close to 6 months when my oral surgeon sent me for an MRI and low and behold  I had to have TMJ surgery to replace the disc.  I was devastated.  And again on medication as the headaches and pain was unbearable.  This time it was vicrprofren and soma.  I had surgery in 2008 and it was a horrible rehab and the meds continued.  My Dr. said in 2 years we would know if the surgery took.  What he failed to tell me was that I would never be able to go back to things as they were.  So certain things would trigger the pain and I would need the meds.  Last year in April, 1 year after the surgery I tapered down from maybe 5-6 7.5 per day to 2 tabs a day with a week off every month. I only took 1/2 pills and never at night.  It was rough, I took supplements and I quit the Soma all together.  I am due for my ck up MRI on the 26th .  But on Thursday I decided no matter what that may show I am done.  So I took my 1/2 pill on Thursday and flushed the last 10.  The past 3 days have been ok but I know it will get worst.  I still take supplements and vitamins and they really help.  I know the hard work to stay off of these little pieces of h*ll is just beginning and this forum is so inspiring.  I just wanted to say for all of you who have done this, I am in awe and appreciate you posting because it helps someone like me know it is possible.

Thank you

[pepper1107]

Thank you All, the last script I picked up was on 03.25 .  The script from months ago still shows up online as "on file"  I have estrogen patches after the hysterectomy so I have to go in and get those .  Normally I get them the same time as the vico.  For the past year I 1/2 was prescribed 60 soma's (stopped picking those up ) and 60 vicros for 30 days.  My oral surgeon will not be calling anything else in as I have asked him for no more narcs so it is just that 1 darn pile of poison on file looming over my head.   I really took the easiest way out when I picked up the last one and told them to cancel the other, I even said it was a mistake yet they still left it.  I purposely did not want to wait till now when I would be weaker to have it still there.  But I am going to do this, I just have to call again , I can't trust myself to pick them up and flush them, not now that the WD have begun. Opiateswon you are a strong person!  also yesterday I was digging through my purse for my keys and they were so easy to find, no more prescription bottles!  It felt good and I really want to keep it that way.

[Jebs317]

Hi Pepper,
I am right there with you and all of the "female" issues.  I have had 5 miscarriages and finally hysterectomy after a tubal preg.  Years of pain and back issues.  
As far as the pharmacy....I called mine and talked to the pharmacist and was very honest.  He said that he would put a note for me that would go to all Walgreens in the U.S. and he worded it with my own words.  "To be given nothing narcotic or addictive."  It was one of those really hard things to do, but as soon as I did it, I felt so relieved.  
You sound very strong and determined!  You are doing great!!

[dominosarah]

I would go right to the pharmacy and tell them you do not want them and to get rid of it.  That is your right so be firm with them if they say anything to you.........sara

[opiateswon]

Dear Pepper; I totally understand your situation. I had to actually go get the script and flush it at the pharamcy to get passed the little thought in my head telling me to go get it. You can do this! I too have health reasons and massive pain that my doctors are good at supplying pain meds. I just reached a point that I decided it was damaging my life and I needed to be clean. I have upcoming proceedures such as yours and am very nervous about how much pain I will endure, but I have discussed this fear with my doctor and set a plan of action if pain meds HAVE to be prescribed short term. Being honest and upfront is the very best thing you can do. Best wishes and congrats on Day 3.

[petroglyph54]

I too am glad you found us, the more the merrier! At my drug store, scrips sit for one week then are destroyed, Maybe it's the same for you? Also, out here in Az, I think you have to pick up narcotic priscriptions in person, or maybe it's just me? Good luck, and good health,

[pepper1107]

Sara,

Thank you for posting!  Yes you are right about letting the Dr. know.  I sent an email to him letting him know I want to handle the pain without any narcotics.  The only issue I have is a few months back he called in vicro for me and I called him and asked for T3 instead.  I really was trying to get to the point and sort of test to see how bad it was without the vico, well he called the T3 in but never removed the original scrip that is still at the pharmacy.  When I picked up the T3 I told the pharmacy that the other script should be cancelled but it is still there.  While I would love to think I can handle that it is there and never touch it, I know better.  What should I do?  How do I get them to destroy it?

Pepper

[dominosarah]

Hi and welcome!!  You sound very determined to do this and that is a big part of it.  Being mentally positive will help a ton.  Many of us have found that our pain actually got better after we were off the pain meds.  Doesnt happen overnight as it is gradual.  Hopefully that will be your case too.  I would tell your doctor that you no longer want the pills also.  Part of getting clean is being honest with others.  We have to be accountable for our actions.  Glad you found us.  You will find lots of support here so keep posting.....and yes all things are possible!!      sara