@Vickie: LOL back atcha! (--love)
@tt: you're doing great
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Amen Sister MeegWpaw!! My Meg-pie..lol=Lots of Love..hahaha
Tram..she said it all right there!!!!
of course you will! it just takes more patience than you ever imagined yourself capable of having. time and patience. believe in the process, try and have faith. you WILL feel better!!! you will probably feel all over the place for some time. but that means you will feel good some of the time, too. then you will have more and more good days. keep going. don't be discouraged. you can do this!
Normal??? What the heck is that..Ha!
Like gnarly said, you have one good thing on your side and that is your age. I too used off & on for way over 40yrs. NOT even thinking it was wrong or what the Heck I was doing to all my Brain Chems & Body Parts...It is REALLY hard for us long time user to ever come back to feeling that thing they call Normal.
You can be re-born again if that is the right words to say! Working on staying clean is a day by day chore and it is NOT easy but worth it. This is the Time that YOU really need to get around other Recovering Addicts. You can vent, ask questions, find someone just like you, all those deep things inside need to come out. I am going on 3yrs and 4 months and I have been having the Good guy on by right side and the Bad guy on my Left. They are messing with my mind. One is saying NO and the other is going; "Oh just one time for the fun of it"!!! Using Every excuse in the World to use so I can get out of my Funk!!! This here WILL pass!!
However, I had to hit that meeting too. The meetings allow me to really let things out that I might not on here.
This is why it is SO important to get out of our head and keep Busy. Call a clean friend when you are down and out. Go to Church and pick up some numbers there too. For me it feels like more of a Spiritual battle right now. I feel the beast trying to pull me back down and He will NOT WIN!!! In the name of Jesus I rebuke him!! SO..I guess I am just letting YOU know that the Mental is the worst and we have to keep re-directed as much as possible. Read a good up lifting book, Movie, Music, Write a Journal..anything!!! Dance to the Music..ha!! Just stay in the day..You will be fine in time.
Bless
Hey girl.........your going to be ok there is life after drugs...I used for 35yrs and opiets for 15yrs I wouldent say im normal.....normal is only a setting on the dryer...LOL but with time and working the N/A progam I have a amazing new life....I should be dead I o/ded on the pills 3 times but God had another plan for me just know this if a old dope fiend like me can recover you certainly well also keep posting for support where all here for you.........Gnarly