Oxy-Roxy-Mess

[Amorous23]

Hi there, I am new to posting in this site but have often used the posts and advice shared by others. I am posting today to possibly gain encouraging advice on how to be stronger than the oxycodone and roxicodone I have been abusing. I am 22 and my boyfriend is 25. We bought some xanax bars off a guy we work with and he kept saying, " Hey I got this Roxy too...You want it?" I didnt know what it was and was like, no I dont care to pay for something I dont even know about...He wanted to get rid of it so badly, that he gave it to us. I actually owed the guy ten bucks towards it when we were to get paid the next day. He said when he came to get his check, that I could pay him then. He never showed, I brushed it off as he had better things to do, but the reality was that he DIED! To this day I havent dug around for info on exactly how, but I was told that he got in a fight with his girl and he went to lay down, he never woke up. That was Friday the 13th 2007 in July. NO JOKE! I have been doing 30mg blue oxycodone ever since. I have spent more money than I wish to even think about on this ******* little blue pill and even got a script for 15mg oxycodone. I cant go one day without one. I used to just take them on my days off, or at night, then it turned into taking them at work, popping one while doing the dishes, my bf would wake in the morning and go right to my purse to take one. They have taken over our lives, we really cant control the urge to take them. Right now we wake up about noon (which isnt uncommon for the work schedule we have) and we take a 30mg (which is broken to negate the time release)  and also half of a 30mg. That holds us at a high until about 3:00 or 4:00 and we take the other half and another 30mg broken in half. We continue our day this way until about 2:00 in the morning at which point we take Temazepam, 30mg (an insomnia pill I have been prescribed). Then we wake up and do it all over again. We dont know what withdrawal symptoms to expect, and thats partly what we're afraid of. We want to quit, we hate the fact that we talk about it so much and have yet to act. We hate the fact that we have practically known someone that has died from them yet still don't have the will to stop. I suppose why I joined this forum, is b/c we are addicted, well addicted, but we arent as far into this addiction as many people we have talked to. Any advice as what to do would be a great help. We sit there on our 2 days off together and take pill after pill just to keep a high. We are scared, but really do want advice on the easiest way to quit together at home. We dont want to go to a detox clinic or any other doctor for that matter. We know we can get each other through this, but just some building block advice as to how to start would be appreciated.... :(

[catchiec]

I think I can help you. I was in the exact same situation as you two months ago. My bf and I did a 5 day methadone detox plan after trying to quit cold turkey a few times but the withdrawals were to bad. We did 25mg methadone the first day, 20mg methadone the 2nd, 15mgs on the third, 10 on the 4th and 5 on the fifth. We skipped all withdrawal sympoms from the oxys and in 5 days stopped taking the methaone. We were off both pills in 5 days with no withdrawals and havnt taken a pill since. People will tell you to stay away from methadone because it has the worst withdrawal symptoms lasting up to months.This is true but only after you become physically dependent on it. You will not become physically dependent on it after only 5 days of use. The people who go through withdrawals are people who stayed on it for a long time. years and years. I am someone close to your age and was in almost the same situation. 150 dollars on pills every 3 days but after 5 days of methadone which cos 40 dollars we were off both pills with no withdrawals. So I know this works however if you take the meth o long you will become dependent on it but after 5 days at that low of a dose their should be no problems their was none for us. The methadone blocks out the withdrawal symptoms from the oxys and you skip over them.

[Funk_tip]

I never been on one of these forums cause lets face it, its kinda gay..but i just got off roxys and it feels so good to finally sleep and not be sweating. i was doing them just like you are and mayb a bit more. any way i did go to detox, i tried everything else, methadone, suboxone, all of that **** and i cant do it on my own. it sucks so ****** hard to admit you cant do it but it really takes being locked in a hospital and fed suboxone for a week. i sware i didnt feel much pain while i was in there, though it is hard to sleep i am so happy i dont gotta drive around in my mercedez untill 5 in the morning looking for pills every night. it sounds scary and unecessay but going to detox is sick, the food is good and the hospital people dont look at you like a drug addict loser! do it trust me, i wud have done it months ago if i knew how easy it was!  i also go to NA meetings, and there really helpful.

[applecran]

Hi, its been some time since this thread was commented on and I am curious as to how your taper/detox went...I have done a taper from about the same amount of oxy as you and your boyfriend...I went down about 10 mg. per week...that worked great for me with minimum discomfort. The big issue is your resolve and willpower...you MUST hold yourself to the reduced amount per week.  Any physical withdrawals should be fairly tolerable if you REALLY WANT TO STOP.  That is KEY.  Willingness to go to any lengths. The bigger issue at least for me were the psychological ones...boy do I miss going into that special oxy "room" where I have that great buzz and NO problems....good luck to you guys, if it didnt work for you TRY AGAIN...there is no place to go with this problem but recovery or sinking lower and lower....

[IBKleen]

I am not downing you..I very concerned. You are a little defensive, which says a lot.  You asked about Sub in another post, so I assume you don't have that much knowledge, if you do..good for you.

Sub is a program that should administered and followed under a doctor's supervision. That is how it could help you best.

And lastly, this is a forum for people who are seeking recovery. So for you to come on and announce that you are buying Suboxone from a "friend" sends out a bad message. We learn by example in life.

[Amorous23]

Let me start off first by saying that I havent bought any Suboxone "off the street"...The person I may buy from has had issues with someone in his life over roxys and they are prescribed. I trust this person with my life, and heaven only knows what would possess someone to post a comment to me to bring me down and make me feel like hell. You don't know what I actually DO KNOW about this drug, nor do you know anything more than what I have let you and everyone on this site to know about me. So thanks for your prayers, but no thanks for any information doubting and downing me and my decisions. You are entitled to an opinion as well as I am, and I think I know what I want to do when it comes to me and the way I live and fix my life.

[IBKleen]

I gotta say that this kind of stuff truly upsets me. You bought Suboxone on the street..you know nothing about it...you don't know how much to take, yet you are going to do it anyway. That is scary hun. Very scary....... and still self-medicating. I wish you luck and hope it works for you. I will also pray for you....heaven only knows what you are buying and taking that people are calling Suboxone.

[Amorous23]

To answer your questions, no to the stern person to hold and dole out to us.There aren't very many people that know we have been doing them, and there isnt anybody that we will be with to do that for us. We both do have Sunday and Monday off and we plan to get away and take a mini-vacation to Orlando. We plan on going to both Universal parks and staying the night away from home. I have read that if you can make it 3 days then you can pretty much make it forever. Not to mention, one of our friends called us just this morning and said that he took half of a Suboxone and feels great. He said that he could get us a few of those too. So what our plan is as of now is to just have a couple days away with just Suboxone when we feel like we're craving one and hopefully coming home to the life we used to have. I think the thing playing the major role is that we both really want to change and we are actually taking the steps towards it. Our attitudes have changed from scared of withdrawal to maybe it wont be so bad...But only time and the days actually off of them will tell. I am now going to finish this up to make the reservation for our hotel....gotta make sure it has a jacuzzi in room and a beautiful view!  : ) I couldn't be more excited...this is giving us something to look forward to and something actually worth blowing our money on!!!

[flmagi]

Hi and welcome to the forum.
Do you have a trusted  but stern person that can hold your pills and dole them out to you both so that you can tapper?  Very unlikely that you both could tapper on your own. Sounds easier than done.
Can you take a week off from work and go cold turkey? It's miserible but you could do it.
Have you heard of Suboxone. Its costly, but then so are the pills your buying. Do you have health insurance?
Are you both ready to do this?
Read some more of the posts on this site and decide what you want to do. The people here are great and will help you both with information and support.
It's time to get clean and you'll both be so happy you did.
let us know what your gonna do. We're here to help.
Magi