If I can help you, please e-mail me at ***@****. I've been there...but life is better now.
AMY call the doctors office. They never spoke of insurance to me. It was a cash payment for the office visit (very reasonable)Than I had to fill a prescription down the street. That was also a fair price. They will tell you the price over the phone. I know how it feels to be so scared. I also know how it feels to be normal now. Making that call and following it thru was something I didnt think I could do. Im happy to say tomorrow will be 13 weeks since my visit. I am clean. If you need any more info please ask and I will try to answer. Bob K
Amy,
How are you doing today? I would really like to talk with you. Please e-mail me @ ***@****.
Bob,
Thanks so much for the information. I am tired of dealing with this. I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I tried to tell my husband last week but I realized I couldn't. A nurse I used to work with got busted for stealing Demerol (yes, injectable) for over a year. I felt so bad for her because she had to surrender her license that she's only had for two years. My husband told me he doesn't feel bad for her, that it's her fault she got addicted. I, on the other hand know she has no control, addiction is a disease like any other. There are so many doctors that will happily prescribe pain meds and then tell you no more and leave you hanging.
I feel if I could get someone to prescribe the Buprenex for me that I would be able to stop on my own. Unfortunately, no one cares. I am also at my wits end here. I only feel normal when I take the pain pills. I can't clean or take care of the kids unless I have at least one. I made some stupid mistakes with clouded judgement and now I am terrified. I can't afford to be sick for three to five days while I go through withdrawls. I am concerened about my reputation since I have so many friends that work at the hospital. I regret the day I had my first bout with severe kidney pain. They freely gave me pain meds and now they want to cut me off. I do feel I need them but now I am stuck with the possibility of getting no more ever. My primary who told me that she is concerned and wants to help me won't return my phone calls but she called my surgeon and told him that she thinks I am an addict.
I am supposed to have my kidney out soon but I am putting it off. They told me that they would give me only Motrin famiuly for pain which I am allergic to. I had a tubal in February and was in pain for weeks. I cannot go and have the surgery, removing an entire organ and be left to suffer with pain. If the Toradol does work for the pain it will leave me with horrible abdominal pain, vomiting and diarreah.
Should I go to a new doctor at a new hospital and see if someone will be willing to help me? I've thought about going to see someone and just laying the cards on the table. I want to talk to a new doctor with a clean slate without interference from my past doctors. I am scared of being labeled a "drug seeker" for life. I am not a drug seeker, I am just in incredible pain. Unfortunately, I made a terrible mistake in an effort to be pain free and now I may be lost and alone. My pharmacy has a lot to do with this as well. I have terrible panic attacks at the thought of going to the doctor or a pharmacy.
Thanks for listening everyone. If you have any advice for me, please help if you can. And Amy, maybe you and I could talk since we are both in New Jersey. BTW, that's another thing...I went out west to visit my mom and was able to stop taking everything for six days. Then I got a horrible infection and got right back on it. Once I got back to NJ I started back with the anxiety and began using frequently again. Anyone feel free to e-mail me. ***@****
Thanks and hugs to all of you...
Lizzy
LIZZY if you call that doc in N.J you will be making the first step to where you want to go.Bob K.
Bob hi, i read your post about this dr Gooberman and am wondering will he help me get off the amount of pain meds i'm on without me having insurance? I don't know what to do anymore, no one seems to want to help if you don't have insurance! I'm so frigg'n scared and although i want to get off of them altogether, I don't know how i'll feel, because i feel normal now! What is normal anymore? I don't feel any type of high or anything anymore when i take them, i just feel normal! Please help me feel less confused!!!! Thanks, take care! Amy