Oxycodone mental

[mblocks]

Hey guys, I need help. I'm past the physical wd's from these terrible pills (oxycodone 30's). The mental part of not doing these is tear me apart. Besides going to NA meetings I need some suggestions on how to help me cope. I think about them all the time and try to convince myself to do one. I know better than to do one but I know better than that. Will the mental part go away anytime soon. I'm trying to stay busy and active, but I need some help from you guys. I know this is normal but any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

[krissy30]

I sympathize with you so much.  I am pretty close to where you are.  I am an addict.  I am totally chemically dependent on opiates.  I started on Heroin back in 96.  I manged to stay clean by moving out of state.  Didn't work, because I was forced by family and was not MY decision.  I stayed clean for a few months, but started back up again.  Relapsed hard.  I cleaned up again by joining a Methadone clinic.  It really worked great for me.  It curbs your cravings and keeps the chemicals in your brain balanced without making you high.  However I don't recommend Methadone to anyone.  It's almost worse for you then the stuff you were on in the first place.  It's VERY difficult to come off of.  I was on Methadone 160mgs for about 6 years.  I moved into my own apartment and could no longer afford it.  I got down to about 15mg, and I could not stand it.  I relapsed again back to Heroin.  I was then picked up by the police for 7 year old arrest warrants.  It was terrible kicking Heroin and yeah the Methadone too.  When I got released 15 days later, I could not stay clean. I relapsed.  I lost everything.....again.  I got so bad that my drug dealer contacted by family and they moved me out of NJ to SC where they had recently moved.  Now I am on Oxys.  (legaly) I am not proud of this.  But, this is where my point was going:  I am chemically dependent.  This is why so many opiate abusers relapse.  The detox is definitely terrible, but the mental and emotional damage the opiates do to us is devastating.  Being alone and unoccupied is truly the worst.  Try to stay as busy as possible.  If you are busy and still get a craving, switch to something else....any thing to restart your brain.  Opiates actually begin to take over the dopamine in your brain....it more or less in a way puts more in so that your brain stops producing as many on its own.  Its why we feel so sad...why we can't concentrate....and why many of us need non-narcotic drugs.  I can't speak for everybody, but I know that I can sympathize with you.  Also, every time you start back up and stop, you get addicted quicker and the detox is usually harder.  The process starts up all over again.  I'm sorry I ramble on and on.  I know it helps me to research as much as possible on the subject of what opiates do to the brain, that's why it's called chemical dependence.  I also agree very much with Vicki, she seems like a very intelligent and sweet person.  Sorry if I wasn't much help, but I am still struggling myself.  I find writing as in a journal helps alot.  And keeping busy as possible even when you don't feel very motivated.  Please keep me posted with how you're doing.  I would love to communicate back and forth with you more.

[mblocks]

Thanks guys, just like a typical addict I want a quick fix. I know there isn't any. I'm not so much depressed as much as I am angry and irratiable: I just wish I never got started on these pills, they take way more of a toll on your everyday life than I could have ever imagined. Your right sharing helps, but it just never seems to be enough if you know what I mean.

[cleanmom]

You know i got to several support groups but the one thing that helps the most is my substance abuse counselor. Maybe try to find a counselor for yourself? It's more personal and one on one so you can really work on the issues that are yours alone. And i would take Vickis suggestion about the depression. I am now on an anti depressant, my doctor put me on it when i was about 10 or 15 days clean and it has helped some. You just need to keep trying different things until you find a combo that works for you. And dont be afraid to throw an antidepressant into the combo. Keep posting whenever you need, we are here to help and offer support. God Bless.
Luv, Jacky

[vicki595]

How long has it been since the last oxy ?

I know this is torture...I have no magic words or suggestions. I know what worked for me if you me to share that...
I tried to stay very busy and that was hard. I read eleven books. Big ones.  I watched movies in the middle of the night. I cried a lot. I got depressed.  I took(and still do) a lot of vitamins and they helped a lot !!  I talked about it all until I was hoarse. I went to meetings.   And then I hit on a stupid thing that works for me:  I vacuum.  No kidding...something about the loud noise,paying attention and moving all at the same time does it for me.  Cravings usually last only 30 seconds but it seems like a million.
You need to get out of your head.  NA meetings are great but we can't be there all day so we need back up plans...  And it does get better. I promise. Won't be long.
One thought though...if you continue feeling horrible you might be depressed and in need of some short term meds(antidepressants).  The pills really mess with our brain chemistry so don't rule that out.   :)

No pills   :)

Vicki  xo