After 40 days or so clean from a 400-600 mg a day habit of oxycontin I slipped up a couple of weeks ago for a good five day bender, then a few days later another 4 day binge. Not exactly fun right now, though it's not nearly a bad as it was getting clean a month and a half ago was at first. Still though, it feels like if I slipped back there again (and it wouldn't take long) I don't think I could deal with that pain right now.
After 40 days my ulcer pain and IBS symptoms had really settled down quite a bit, and that's whats really pulling me up here. While they stop the pain initially, there's no long term solution with them and they're really making things worse here. It was sooo nice to not worry about them constantly, and now they're making life really quite uncomfortable again. Sigh, thinking I could just get high one more time because I was really annoyed at something was a particularly bad move.