Good start ...now begining to go south

[addict3]

Hey all, Today started out so well I felt pretty good. Now I am a nervous wreck, Paronoid,and craving really bad.
What the heck happened? I did cut 10mg valium back so that might be the answer but i took 10mg and later .5 don't seem to help. Any thoughts or just tough it out? This is day 15 off of a ten year 10mg  10-12 daily Dr. supervised HABIT ((Vics)  which he calls dependent.... dont feel guilty he says, "you need this."
Well I dont need this, and have stopped but I am having a wee bit of trouble, legs starting to go bad, also and if you have been following me I AM COLD. A little better but geez ppl are in shorts & T shirts and I am wearing long underwear.
From what I have read today this is nothing but, I just thought I would throw it out there if anyone had any ideas.
Thanks

[mimi1313]

It is completely normal to still have the anxiey(105 days clean so believe me I know) It will pass. Your body is still adjusting. It'll get better, I promise!!

[s10sittnondubs]

I am with you, I felt so bad on the afternoon of my 1st day, and on day 9 now I look at that and it feels like two days ago now.  I have gone completely ct and maybe try after day 4 to cut back on the valiums as taking them will draw out your w/d's even longer.  You've already done so much by getting this far and not taking a pill, don't give in now.  Take it one day at a time and know that it only can get better and not worse, that is the mental trick, it really is.  Right now your soul is saying I wont do this anymore and I will never go through this, but your body and part of your mind screams otherwise, I like to call it the ultimate good vs. evil fight.  You can do it just know that a better day lies ahead.

[dominosarah]

Yes that is clean with a capital C!!!!

[Crispy]

sounds like the infamous PAWS its gonna be a rollercoaster high highs and low lows. Its what makes the mental part so bad after w.ds are gone. Stay strong and this to shall pass

[addict3]

WOW!  do not know what to say, Thank you, I am glad it helped. Good for you on 9 days (is that clean?) Hang in there young lady, there are a lot smarter folks here than I to help. Take it!!!

[lonelyinCA]

It sounds like everything is normal. Your body/mind is fighting against you.  Do your best to take back control of your mind from the habit and fight back.  You are actually stronger than the addiction.. it just doesn't feel that way this minute. It will past.  

I'm keeping you in my thoughts.  

[dominosarah]

you were my inspiration to join this forum.  It was the first one i read 9 days ago.  Im not real good with the advise yet but please just ride this out and keep posting.  

You have come this far............

Stay strong my friend.