I can do this, right??

[tavia14]

OK, it's 2pm and nothing! Yay! I am doing it and the day is practically over, right! I can do this!!!! Shoot no turning back now and why would I have felt like hell for the whole first of the day just to call and try to get some..I can do this I will do this ...Bye for now I will keep fighting off to the TV

[killmypain]

I understand being disappointed in yourself. I am actually more angry with myself than anything else. But I don't want to dwell. I don't need any more negative feelings as I am only on day 2 and the physical pain is all I can deal with right now. I don't want you to beat yourself up too much. We all screw up. We have to screw up in order to learn. It's part of being human and that which does not kill us makes us stronger.... cliche maybe, but true. We are also less judgemental of others because we have screwed up ourselves. So, you are BETTER because of your mistakes....as long as you LEARN from them. Keep swimming!

[magnoliaooo]

  You can do this I just wanted you to know I am starting over to. I had 41/2 months clean and I relapsed. I really was one who thought surely I won't relapse. Tavia I did and I know exactly how you feel.  I think what bad obsession said about did you learn from it. I learned so much this time around and I realized I hurt someone so dear to me because of my pill addiction, it changes who I am completely. I was at almost five months and now at day 22, so sad.

     This is a very difficult thing to do to start over isn't it? I just wanted you to know you are not alone I am in the same boat as you. I think we have to dust ourselves off and do things different this time. I am dissapointed in myself but I am going to keep pushing for success.
I am right there with you

                                              Mag

[Bad_Obsession]

Just keep swimming!!  Just keep swimming!  I like that!  Good movie!  Congrats on the decision to change your lives....both of you.  It's a huge first step that many people are afraid to make.  Hold your head high that you've gotten this far.

I can understand why you guys might be depressed more than anyone probably.  I relapsed many, many times. Too many to count!  You guys just have to forget about the past.  Sh*t happens, and we all screw up over and over again.  So forget about the past- we all make mistakes.  Chalk it up as a learning experience,and always keep in mind where you went wrong.  Think about what you could do differently this time  around. Focus on now.  Focus on this day, this hour....this minute if you have to.  But don't make the mistake of not doing anything differently this time.  I am a huge believer of the old saying that we say around here and that is "don't keep doing things the same way, and expecting a different outcome".  You have to change things up.  If  it didn't work the first time doing it a  certain way, then it will not work the next time doing it the same way.  So...what are you guys gonna do differently this time around?

[LeaAnn807]

You can do this!!!!!!!  I'm cheering for ya.  Take those hot baths as often as you need to.  They really do help even if it is for a few minutes!!  Don't give up!!!!!! : )

[killmypain]

Hey girl. I know what you mean. I made it 6 months earlier then I relapsed 7 months ago and am currently on day 2. No more. I had someone call and offer me pills and I REALLY wanted to feel better but ur right. No sense in feeling this bad for nothing! only a couple of days left and my body won't feel so bad. I took a hot bath. It helped. I just wish I could explain to my family whats going on. My kids just think I'm a deadbeat now that I don't have all that energy.
It's gonna come back though. We can do this! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming....

[tavia14]

Almost 3 months:( and never felt better ......ugh depressed!!!!

[Bad_Obsession]

Hi. Glad to see that you are quitting again.  Don't be mad at yourself.  If anything...be happy that you have taken the first step and you are determined to quitting again.  It's only a bad thing if you didn't learn anything from it.  If you have learned from your past failure, and you are going to change some things to make sure it doesn't happen again, then it's all good!  

How long did you make it before you last relapse, if you don't mind me asking?  Have you looked into any aftercare programs?  You're going to have to do some things differently this time if you don't want to repeat the same mistakes.

Good luck to you.  Keep us posted.  We are pullin' for ya!!  God bless!

[tavia14]

Yes day one and sooooooo mad at myself for letting this happen again!!!! I feel like he'll well that is an understatement... Very depressed tool!!! Oh well no other way except through it !!! Here we go....

[Devonlee]

Keep it up! You ARE doing it...You are on day one? Okay you have a few more days to go if thats true and then physically you will feel better. Keep it up!