I have to admit i was one who didnt understand drug addicts. i have never been addicted to anything before in my life and I just turned 38. I never in a million years thought that I would be calling myself a drug addict, my choice hydrcodone. I thought the drug was innocent enough when i started using it a little over a year ago. it made me feel great, like a new person again( i had alot of problems with my husband's cheating and all. Depression, stress, high blood preassure and the migraines, those were the worst). No one knows I have a problem because like you they wouldnt understand, especially my husband who seems to think I should be happy all the time. Two months ago I came across this site and lurked around reading the posts in here. the words that were written were so insperational and i finally felt like i wasnt alone, and i wasnt. People in here are so awsome, caring, and understanding, never judging but encouraging. So 6 days ago I joined and started posting. By the middle of the day i had bade the decision to taper off the hydro because i wasnt brave enough to go cold turkey( and I am still not). My point is regardless of what you decide or what you do, people in here are in the same situation and like me love talking, getting it off our chest so to speak. So dont ever feel like you are alone or there is something wrong with you because there is not, you are human, I am human, we are all human and as stuborn as I was realize we all need a little help and encouragement, some time.
Hey thanks guys and to overppiates psychobilly is a type of music. Um yeah it's day 9 now and I feel alittle better I just feel messed up. I don't wanna be a addict and struggle with this the rest of my life! Never been to n/a. I came off all by myself because people around me that had found out or knew were judging me in a bad way. I wanted to get off 110%. But I donno my head is in the sky. I feel like I have my whole life and so much motivation but absolutely no physical strength right now. I know it will come back but it's hard waiting. I'm afraid I'll relapse.
Sara u know I never realized til I just read it from u that I no longer have an issue w/saying Im an addict.That was/is one of the toughest things n the world2say out loud n the begining and 100fold to say2people who dont have a clue about addiction.For the1st time since I was a teenager I am getting a real identity again(instead of just addict).
@physcobillyqueen(what a name btw interesting).The more time that passes sober u will realize there r a lot of people who do get it&those who dont if there open to it after ur feeling better Maybe u can b the1tp explain it to them.
You feel like this because it's only been 8 days.
People DON'T understand and it makes it a very lonley road.
In addition, you're young. That will work in your favor if you'll let it.
Eat good food (proper food) and get as much exercise as possible!
You feel like this because your brains neurotransmitters are all out of wack and not functioning properly. They mess with mood, depression anger etc.
It takes time for them to heal and start functioning properly.
There are things you can do to help relieve these imbalances, like eat foods that provide the amino acids that metabolize into the neurotransmitter levels that you are low on, such as dopamine and serotonin. You can also take amino acid supplements, along with a good ulti vitamin with be complex vitamins, and vitamin b6 as well as 1000mg vitamin c. This helps your body absorb the nutrients in food that are needed for neurotransmitter production.
You can read more at the link at the bottom of the page called "amino acid protocol". Learning how your body works will help you better know how to take care of it while it's healing, and help you feel better while it is.
Days like these will pass, and occur less frequently as your neurotransmitters return to normal. Drugs really do a lot of damage, and it just takes time to heal, so hang in there. Take it one day at a time and try remain focused on the positive when you have days like this.
ooops 8 days off methadone
I agree with Sara and would like to add I go to a very supportive church group
there are a lot of recovered addicts in it but I have friends also that are not
it is imposable to explain to somebody what its like or what you have gone threw that hasent been there ......your get that deer in the headlights stare
I have learned who and who not to share it with and im like Sara I try to educate those that dont know about it thats usually what I do with my church friends try to tech them about it rather then enplane the addiction itself
you need to get up to some form of aftercare so you can talk about this it not good to bottle it up N/A has a wonderful program its free and there everywhere just google one in your area hang in there where here for you your doing really great for 5 days off methadone congrats on that keep posting and good luck and God bless......Gnarly
None of us set out to be addicts but it happened. We cant go back and have a redo, all we can do now is surrender, stop fighting it and stay in our recovery. I dont mind anymore being a recovering addict. The world has opened up and the possibilities are endless now. I have me for the first time in my life. I never knew who i was, i only knew who i wasnt. I also spout my mouth when i hear someone talk about addictions that have no clue. Hopefully they will change up their thinking after we are done talking. None of this happens overnight, its baby steps but you will get there. Have faith in yourself~~sara
I agree with overopiates. The reality is that people who aren't addicts just don't get it. That's why it's important to seek out aftercare. Have you gone to NA? At least there, everyone knows exactly how you feel.
People w/o knowledge I mean personal experience dont get it.Drug addiction is hard there is no reason and a million reasons why(depending how u [email protected]
).U need to check on meetings,addiction specialists and always know we all get it here.Its tough+***** big time+ur coming off a med that takes longer to feel normal again but u will feel normal again.STAY strong.