Please help and advice.

[D713]

I releaspe. I'm taking 2-5 in this whole week but I've been like this for a year...I just wanna quit but I have schoool....also. So it's even more hard. I just want this sickness and kick this habit in the face It's not even fun anymore but get me more depress and get me sucidal thoughts. Cold Turkey I tried I need my energy...Any advice will help....Thanks for y'all time and love.

[Sonrissa]

Hi there! You can get off of this roller coaster! You need to come up with a plan to get off the pills! You can either taper down or cold turkey! Set yourself up to succeed! Get supplies you will need from the Thomas recipe! Cut all your sources for pills! Keep posting for encouragement and advice! We will help you every step of the way! You can do this! Don't give up! Take care and best wishes!

[D713]

Thanks I'm trying really hard....sometimes I go in the bath room and cry not to sound like a girl. or Dramatic..but it is the DEVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Sonrissa]

It's ok to cry! Real men cry! Just ask some of the men on here who have made it through this! However, as I said before, come up with a specific plan and start working through it! You need to take control! You can do this! We will support you through it!

[D713]

Thanks its so hard....its like no energy what so ever and i don't have class till tuesday. Pretty much weekend today I did 1..dissapointed. I just want to get suboxone and use it for a week and im done.

[Sonrissa]

I can not advise you on Suboxone as I don't know anything about it! I would say however, that it is not the way to go! You are not going to succeed until you stop taking pills and cut off all your sources! Every time you get weak or feel bad, you will take 1! Then it will escalate from there!

Get serious! You can do this! Trust me, I did it! It isn't easy, but it is doable! You must be determined! Until you are really ready to quit, you will just continue this cycle!

[D713]

=/ Thanks.

[selfinduced]

Hey D! If I'm reading this right, you are only taking one pill a day? Or is it 2-5 per day? Sounds like you have tapered down? Either way, this is a very reasonable dose to come off of. It's more mental for you at this point. Don't fear the WD. We go thru much worse being on these pills with the running low, anxiety in between doses, constantly chasing the next fix. Just think.....this will end the nonsense and you will be FREE!!! Sure detox is a major inconvenience, but you can do this. Stay busy with a project, get some exercise, hot baths are priceless. Think of all the xtra money you'll have. Your off till Tue from school?EXCELLENT, by then you will be feeling a would better. Keep posting....We care..

[addictbysurprise]

I totally understand your concerns.  I too, needed my energy because I have an extremely high energy job as well as a 4 1/2 year old. I tapered down and I ran out of pills to continue on my taper.  I took suboxone for about a week and although I continue to go through the mental ups and downs, I am sober and extremely proud of myself.  Private message me if you have any questions about how I did it.

[D713]

Thank you so muchhh I'm tryinggg!!!! so hardd!!! thanks for caring also..I hope i can overcome this if I do omg this means ANYTHING right now in the world to me...just want my life back

[wai92]

yo man fck bro i know we are going through the ****** times of our life. I cant believed Im this hooked and droped out college cuz i no longer could go on . im going back to school after new year. how are u feeling buddy. i really feels that me & u canpush each other on quiting since we shares the same age group and i guess u must got it from street also, but if u dont mind me asking whar are u taking mg per day ? is this ur first day C/T ? what kind have coruse u taking in college ?.

[D713]

Eng/Alg at the moment yeah. Same shoes bro it's tough/hell bro =(...wish i never touched it i use to hate it...use to make me throw up but then accident in 07 how about you?

[wai92]

yo man str8 up .i use to puked off just a 20oxy when i first started, but somehow it never cause me to stop even with all the puking and nausea. I totally agred bro , u cant touch this sh1t at all . all my friends are hooked too and the worst part it is , going str8 to the bottom, like I lost my driving licence and i sold my whip and spended it all on oxy within 2 months and after that i droped out college.cuz i cant go to school at 7 am to 3 pm while going though withdrawals. and i realized i wasnt going to finish my program with this habit. yo have u ever talked to anyone abt it, maybe like ur parent or siblings?

[D713]

I did. they judged me it feels like i'm alone in this well not alone because of everyone on here but yeah i have. they just judge and talk stuff and look at me diffrently pretty sad how they do that

[wai92]

Oh I c, well I m always here for u brol, we will get outta this addiction for sure as long we put our foots down

[Fireby29]

Ack.  You said roller coaster too!  It is so true though, isn't it?

[kyle505]

Fireby speaks the truth. You can't use school as an excuse not to stop. There will ALWAYS be something - school, work, social occasions, family...Life hands you hundreds of excuses every day. When you're ready then you will do whatever is necessary. No matter what. When you start the journey we'll be waiting. Remember - the longer you wait, the harder it gets.

[D713]

Thanks Guys!!! love yall.....I will post....its hard..=(

[kyle505]

Yes - it's very, very hard. Someone just brought up my posts from the start of my detox almost 9 months ago.  He's using and trying to get off Noro, as I was. If you browse through the posts you'll get a fast review of my struggles which are about the same as everyone else's. I called them my days in hell. Very hard.

[D713]

Yeah it is hell and the pill is the Devil.....Noone understand that never been through it they say like it's easy just stop don't know about withdrawl's and etc.

[D713]

Truth..thanks bro...Any advice I'm always on here now.

[Nighthawk61]

You've got four days off, and you're down to one pill a day today? I'd start now. It's well worth the effort. There's never going to be a better time. You've just started your term, you've got a long year a head of you.  So you're sick for a few days, it happens to everybody. You'd still be ahead of the game if you had to take a few days off. Sounds to me, like now is as good a time as any. Always will be someone on here to keep you company buddy. We're all rooting for you , no matter when you start this thing.  Feel better. Don't even think about crying being a problem. It's not. It happens to the best of us. You're still the man, dude.
Liz

[D713]

Thank mant aht means so muchhhh I tried doing one a day but mannn it is so hard its like omg i want that feeling but i know its all self control and telling urself do u wanna keep goin on like this...and etc

[Nighthawk61]

Hope you've got meeting in mind when you do, do the deed.