First of all I would like to say thank God for forums of this nature. I have been up all night looking up Xanax and pot addiction, poetry of addicts etc and stumbled across this. Call me crazy and I will say your right. But I am in love with a wonderful man whos life has been through hell and back due to his 15mg a day use of xanax(for the past 2 years) and 7-8 joint a day addiction for the past 11. He doesn't have his teaching career due to his disease. He is having withdrawals when he wakes up from sleep because of the xanax. Stomach pains (excruciating in his own words), diarrhea, dry mouth, paranoia, moodiness, vomitting, everything. I have researched xanax at my work because I administer medications daily to my clients and was so surprised that Xanax can cause coma, death and even seizures. I am scared for his life. I have tried to understand when he says "baby, i cant quit, it hurts too much, I just have to live with it.All the pain goes away when i pop that lil pill, you just don't understand." But I want to understand, I just don't know how to.
Lately he has come out of his denial admitting he has a problem and admitting he needs and wants help, he is just scared toand has no insurance. I guess I have many questions on how i can help him without being so preachy, so pushy but also not losing myself to his addiction as well. WE are in a long distant relationship which makes it even more difficult.
Are there any free rehab programs in Miami or near Miami? How do I deal with all my feelings without hurting him in the process? Please help.......ty Ren