Hi
I have been posting as I switched from Oxys to methadone and tapered down to a low dose(5mg) of the methadone. I quit for about 3 days and the pain was more than I can deal with. The withdrawls at that point were not much of a issue. Reading about how to taper was so helpfull, and I get alot of help from the site, but for the time being I have to accept that I will not be drug free. It feels dishonest to respond to any posts because I am on a continueing low dose of med.
It might seem that I should be on the pain site, but I abused the higher doses of oxy when I was on them and am a recovering alcoholic, so I'm familiar with signs/simptoms of abuse. On these low doses of meth. I am doing ok not abusing them, but have concerns and dissapointment about being "unclean".
Another concern is that in posting to a site for addicts and stateing that I am an addict and am able to take an opiate at any level and not screw up my life might be very unhealthy for the recovery of others.
I don't know how I would have gotten this far without the help of the site, but I have the option of just reading or not discussing the fact that I am still on some medication. I just don't seem to fit well anywhere, but don't feel like causing any debate or damage to anyone elses sobriety.