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[gundo]

I did what I hoped I wouldn't for those of you who know about yesterday..  I relapsed in an ugly way...  gundo

[scottt]

I"m srry to hear about you backslide you need to avoid all  places and friends where you can get them. I have access to my demon everday I just took steps to make sure I CANT GET TO YHEM! You knew that they were there when you went! T hat is a recipe for disaster!!! Get back on the horse!!!

[usarmymedic1]

LOL there is only one Job in this goverment that is 24/7 365 and it is not being a politian. on call even when you are on vacation I find what you said about this man alittle messed up put you are intittled to that opinion. Just one thing if you are not afraid of your addition why not post your picture. it is the same as this gentleman posting about what he felt like he would do and then came back and asked for help becouse he did it that takes big BALLS to do. Gundo it would take bigger balls to go back to that house and explain what you did it is your reputation as a buissness man and if it gets out even as a rummor it can hurt you in the pocket. Also think about the person taking them what is that person going to go through when there pills run out???? you need help we are here to help you but please help yourself and seek out a counselor to help you with your addiction not everyone can do it alone most can't most need help I needed help

medic

[cathy5841]

i get paid to do just what i am doing!!!posting on med-help...matter of fact my boss is sitting in here doing nothing too.  i work for a finance company and keep their books.  i only really work the last 2 days of the mont...thats when we close out.  the rest of the time i am on the clock...doing whatever i want, just incase they need me.  i love my job!!!!!  and my daddy has been a preacher for 60 years and has pastored the same church for 46...i was almost one when he started it...

[Shotrock]

By the way, when you do the Peoples work your always on the Clock, you know that your father was a Preacher!!

[Shotrock]

Tough Love is sometimes necessary.. one of the problems we all have is when we lie nobody calls us on it, they just enable us. I didn't like being lied to. Guess thats not how this works.  I really wish only the Best for Gundo, Good Luck!

[confused456]

Glad you are posting! Glad you are not giving up!! That shows a lot about you!!!

[allaboutmary]

I was just goin to send you a pm and saw you post.  So glad to hear you are getting back on the horse. You can do this, I know you can.  Hugs,   Mary

[cathy5841]

I BELIEVE IN YOU GUNDO!!!!

[gundo]

I will start over no matter what it takes with this forum, the great people here and my higher power to be clean for the rest of my life..  G

[poetrygirl1960]

What an great post corey!  Your words are golden.

[newgirl2708]

hmm....sounds a little something like I wrote yesterday. In two posts...under Tempted. I have done this myself and have only found support and suggestions as well as stories.
newgirl.

[cathy5841]

corey, what a great post...i had forgotten about the post where THIS politician ask id he could tke 1 or 2 for his meeting .  you are so right.   and, i wonder if he is on the clock while he is on this forum...hhmm.  thanks for helping me out
cathy

[corey411]

Totally agree with cathy There was a post from a politician who was quitting a few weeks ago but just felt they needed 1 or 2 to make it through their speach. He seemed to be looking for permission.Politicians are elected. Do the people who elected you know your a drug addict??Lying is stealing time and faith from people and to be honest I'd rather have someone steal something of material value than my faith. No matter how we catagorize groups of people...ones that go to church...disabled people...there are ones that are good and honest and ones that will steal and kill. Some addicts are probably messed up people to begin with but I find that most I've learned about through this forum and NA speakers that recovered they are mostly good hearted decent people who would not have done any of the things they,ve done if it were not for their addiction to drugs. I know exactly what gundo had to deal with and did not get a chance to post the first time. I would have said don't go..It's too hard to resist. I'm looking for a new job bc I know I can't stop this way. He did not post thinking anyone was going to give him permission to steal...he was hoping for a solution to a no answer riddle. Gondo,  please continue to fight and post. Corey

[cathy5841]

sorry my friend he is welcome here in any condition.  if we turned away all that stole or robbed to attain their sDOC  the site would have very few ppl on it.  he did wrong he knows that...we all know that....but there is still hope.  my daddy told me as long as there is breath there is hope...and he has you trumped he is a preacher!!!

[Shotrock]

My Friends on this forum may not like what I'm about to say, but I'm a politician and I speak my mind,  I'll be honest, but I won't sugar-coat it     You came on this Forum yesterday fully knowing that you were going to take those pills ( Steal them ).  You thought that by stating your case to us you would have associates in the crime you knew you were going to commit. You could somehow justify that it wasn't you stealing it was the Evil addict, well you are that Evil addict and now your also a Thief.... Hope and Help abounds on this site, but don't make these good people here your surrogate enablers, you have your addiction for that...... I truly care about the people who come to this site for help....  When you really want help you'll be welcomed!

[chef4u]

oh Im sorry! but you are not a bad person you are a addict forgive yourself DONT do it again and get back on track if you believe in prayer, pray I believe good can get you through this! go to N.A you engourged me to go and said there was no judgement we are all in the same boat im on day 8 and I say i never want to use again and i hope by the Grace of God I dont but I know im human and a addict and whos knows what will happen to me but id like to think if i messed up i will get back on track remeber your not bad just addicted
God Bless,Much Love and Strength
Geri-Rose

[lucyred68]

we've all done it.  very few make it the first time.  you need to make yourself accountable to someone and not get mad when they check up on you.  that was the only way i could get clean.  you can do it, sometimes it just takes a little help.. get back on the wagon and go for it again.

[girlybuff]

UOUI MUST BE WILLING TO GO TO ANY LENGTHS FOR SOBRIETY.
You are willing to go to any lengths to get your DOC so why not give 100% towrads recovery.  There is a chair at an NA meeting with your name on it.  Go and sit.

[poetrygirl1960]

I like what toxic said it is indeed a learning experience and you can't and don't want to go back so just get back on the horse Gundo!  Don't let it defeat you we all fall short.

[worried878]

Do not lose hope...if you can, do not go into the people's home who have the drugs...switch those patients with someone..It is just not worth it for your recovery nor for getting caught and losing your license...I am guessing you are a PT...perhaps a care tech/home health aid...Good luck...aftercare would be a good thing as well

[josh231]

it happens most people cant do this on there first and second try its nothing to beat your self up over it happened with me prolly 4 time before this final time

[cathy5841]

gundo, you gotta get some help.  you may not be able to beat this on your own.  there are addiction specialist.  you need to see one.  we are here for you, but you gotta help you.  first thing you know you will wind up in jail...and i know you dont want that.  no one here is going to judge you...we have done things as addicts we are not proud of.  and you do have to pick yourself up and get back in the race.  but, all marathon winners have to train to get there.   you need to get some training in order to win this race!!!much love to you and i am always here.
cathy

[toxictome]

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back in the race.

I call this not a failure...but a LEARNING experience.....

Keep trying..you'll get there......are you checking out any NA mtgs.?

Good luck gundo....start your new life today!!!

[traveladdict]

Time to do some deep soul searching and find a way to prevent this from happening again.   You will need to fix this sooner rather than later before this escalates to a legal problem. Good luck on whatever decision you make