i know... i get it. of course they were our decisions. but how we got there.. well, there were reasons. there were reasons we made such bad decisions..
but you're exactly right - there's no where to look but forward.
That is a good quote, but I don't believe that in my case. It IS my fault for going down. I made those decisions to do the things I did and now I have to take responsibility.
I am sorry your year was bad as well. Nothing for us to do, but to look forward to a good future, right?
(Now I have to get myself to believe that)
Funny, you didn't leave the house when you took pills and I can't leave the house without pills or whatever.
You were the life of the party when you were clean, I was the life of the party when I had a pocket full of pills, a bag of blow, and a bottle of morphine in my pocket.
I am not dumb, but I pulled a lot of **** in college. I got my GED and i usually paid people to do my work. Texted myself the answers to tests to my cell phone.
Anyway, I am really going to look into some more therapy. I have to do something. And staying off drugs will be my first obstical.
totally. living unconcious is WAY easier... but in my opinion, is a miserable existence.
and yes - forever is way way better!!!!!
and i'm sorry your year was bad. i get it. i mean, in my way... I try to remember what Martin Luther King said - it's not our fault for going down, but it's our responsibility for getting back up.
i couldn't go down any further.. i HAD to go up!! :)
How about instead of staying clean for a while, I stay clean forever?
I agree with you there, last year was my "perfect storm" There were many small storms in previous years that led to it, but last year was...I cant even put it in words.
You are right about the emotionally healthy being hard work. Physically as well. When I didn't give a s*** it was so easy.
.. and if you graduated with honors, you're smarter than you let on. or than you acknowledge.
it even takes a smart guy to cheat that well...