How my life has changed, being sober...

[liscamdave]

I just wanted to take the time to tell everyone here, my friends and any new members, you can have a wonderful life again after addiction. I remember back when I first lost my husband, I was so deep in shock and also so deep in my severe oxy contin addiction, that I thought about taking my own life. I thought that nothing would ever make me happy again. I had lost the one person in this world that only 8 months earlier, I had vowed to spend my life with. We were both so addicted and after losing him, I never thought I  would be the same again. I didn't want to stop using and only got worst. I spent every last dollar I could on Oxys. I got almost $100,000 in death benefits from his death and spent every last dollar on pills. I never once had a script, my entire addiction was me buying them off the street.
I remember thinking back when I was at the worst of my addiction, that I would never be happy without the pills and I would never look at life the same, but I also knew I had to stop.

My point for writing this now, is to tell everyone here that I am PREGNANT...I just found out and I am thrilled. I have been seeing this guy, first and only person since my husband died 2 and a half years ago, and he is just wonderful. He is wonderful to me and to my daughter..and we are going to have a baby. I am due in July 3, 2009 and  I cannot wait. I am moved in with him and my life is finally getting put back together, piece by piece...and I know that if this can happen for me, someone who almost lost everything there was to lose, it can happen for everyone. The first step is quitting. As hard as it sounds, it can be done. I kept telling myself that prior to me ever taking that first pill, I never needed anything to be happy. Nothing at all..I was a naturally happy and upbeat person. It was when I became an addict that I became this miserable, anti-social biotch. And now, I am back to being that happy person. Its so sad what I let go and what I lost throughout my addiction. But we live and we learn. I am the queen of learning lessons the hard way. But...that's life...

So I just wanted to tell everyone because I am just so happy. And I hope all are well...

xoxoxo, Lisa

[FxGz]

congratulations. it sure is good to hear your success story! don't stop the work that got you here!

[liscamdave]

Thanks momma!!!

Love you!!!

[lovemypillhead]

:)

YEA! SO HAPPY FOR U.............

LOVE YA HONEY!

[liscamdave]

Thanks girls...I am so happy. THanks so much....

xoxo

[dominosarah]

A new life, a new joy...........congratulations!!!!!!           sara

[worried878]

Sounds like a fairy tale girl...good 4 u and thanx for sharing

[tryinhard78]

CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are such a sweet and caring person....You deserve this and so much more.I am so happy for you.

[Sunnyd210]

Congratulations Im soooooo happy for you! You deserve it!!!

[liscamdave]

THanks so much cathy...I am so happy and I am so glad you are happy for me. I knew you all would be. I cannot wait. I truly cant. And I am so early on its going to be a long 9 months...lol

Anyway...thanks honey...

xoxo

[cathy5841]

Lisa,

I could not be prouder of you.  you have come so far and overcome so much.  NOBODY deserves to find happiness anymore than you.  and there is no better way to celebrate than with a new baby....CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

[liscamdave]

Thanks soooo much honey. I know, I love babies too and really honestly believed that my 9 year old little girl was it for me. I did NOT think I would ever have more kids. And seeing that test be positive, I was floored, and also was not expecting that one..lol..

But, its happend and I am going to welcome it and accept it. We are both happy and I am excited about my future again...

Hope you are well...

xo

[liscamdave]

Thanks girl..I truly appreciate that. I am so thrilled and just cannot wait. All it took was for me to stop using to turn my life right back around. It still to this day, completely amazes me what we let happen while in active addiction. And then what can happen when you finally stop. Anyway...thanks again girl...

xo

[troubleinohio]

OMG!!!!!!!!! congrats!!!!!!!!!!! i didnt see this coming at all!! Im sooooooooooo happy for you Lisa!!  I hope you will share every little sweet tidbit of your pregnancy with us! I just love pregnancy and babies! Its such a wonderful time in a woman's life! I am thrilled for you!!! congrats congrats congrats!!! xo xo xo xo

[JENZ_N_RECOVERY]

wow....thats so awesome!!! im so freakin happy for ya sista!!! you deserve all these good things that are cummin your way!!! im so proud/happy of ya!!!
~~~~HUGZ~~~~
JENZ

[liscamdave]

Thanks jen...I know..isn't it cool about the due date. It was originally the 4th, but it was changed. It may change again though because I have my first appt to get my first ultra sound in two weeks and he siad it will change then. I just cannot wait...I really can't...

Thanks again..

xoxoLisa

[liscamdave]

A,

Thanks so much honey.. I really appreciate that. You are so sweet. I am so excited and just cannot wait to have this baby. I want a boy...because I have the best little girl, but healthy is all that really matters to me..

xoxo

[bandnmom]

Congrats girl!!!! I am so happy for you! You have lost so much but worked so hard to get here....get to where you are today, right here right now!! Your daughter and the new little one are so lucky to have a great mommy!! I am so happy for you and as always wish you the best!
Forth of July baby huh!?!?! How cool is that!!! Congrats again Lisa!! You deserve only the best life has to offer!!!!
Hugz,
Jen

[AlessandrasMom]

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Holy cow, I am soooo excited for you.  I got tears in my eyes, this is such a great post, the best!  I'm so happy for you.  I can't even find the words to say!  Just so happy for you, you deserve this so much!!!