Relapse - Continued

[missmetal]

So, I finally decided to see my general practitioner today because I just couldn't wait until Tuesday to see my specialist.  I really needed to get it off my chest, how I've been feeling...so, I was lucky enough to get an appointment this morning.  Mind you, there are, like 20 doctors in this group, and the one I managed to get just happened to be a co-worker's father...anyway...all morning long, I was kind of rehearsing what it was I wanted to say to him, and I finally decided on - hello - yes, the truth!

The doctor was GREAT - and I felt so much better once I had "my say."  He was very understanding, and talked to me about the different levels of pain medications and explained what a pain management clinic actually does (I didn't know they don't treat addiction, which I guess makes sense - that's not what they're there for).  He wrote me a prescription for Cymbalta...and then wrote me a prescription for 60 Roxicet 5/325 - I was appalled.  His reasoning for the Roxicet was that it's a different makeup than the Norco (narcotic vs. opiod).  After I poured my guts out about what I'm going through, I got a prescription for MORE pain pills.

UNBELIEVABLE.

He said that the Roxicet is a step down from the Norco - and you know what?  It is NOT.  Not only is it a step UP, it contains Oxycodone, which is the LAST thing I need - a more addictive ingredient than what's in Norco.

Then he said, "See you in a month."

WOW.

So, I said thank you and left - WITHOUT the prescription for the Roxicet - I told him I wanted to give the Cymbalta an unadulterated try.  That was a tough thing for me to do, as my nose was running, my skin was crawling - I felt like I'd been up for 4 days straight and thought I was going to have diarrhea right there in his office...but I did it - I said NO.

I left, feeling better that I was as honest as I could be, but really disappointed/disillusioned that he did what he did...I also told him I was really afraid of jeopardizing my relationship with all of my healthcare providers because of the drug abuse, and he still wrote that prescription!

So, here I am - I will take the Cymbalta and see how it goes.  And I will see my specialist on Tuesday and be as honest with him as I was with the GP today.  I know he'll push for me to go to the pain management clinic - and I will tell him my fears about it, but am really hoping the treatment we decide on (Remicade or Humira) does the trick, and I won't need it.  The idea of being prescribed things like MS-Contin scares the hell out of me - if I have this much trouble with Norco or Vicodin, I can't even begin to imagine being prescribed medication that's so much scarier, even though I understand the clinic monitors patients very closely.  Maybe I shouldn't be so close-minded until I have all the facts...but...

Anyway, thanks for letting me share - mucho appreciated, as always!

K  oxoxo

[missmetal]

Hi there - I'm in the midst of detoxing - and this time around, it's the emotional/psychological that's so much worse than any other time before...I'm hoping you're right about the Cymbalta - I'm going through some physical uncomfortableness, but that'll go away.

Isn't that some crazy s***???  Like I said, I was just appalled that he actually wrote out that prescription...the only way I know the Roxicets are worse than the Norcos is that I asked the pharmacist while I was picking up the Cymbalta - I asked out of curiosity - I'm so glad I asked; however, I would have looked it up online, anyway; I'm always curious like that -

Glad to see you wrote me before I head off to bed - hope you are having a good night - and thanks a ton for all your insight and encouragement -

Karen  oxoxo

[gnarly_1]

HI.....WOW thats crazy to give a script to someone that just tell you there an addict ....good for you not taking it it will only make things worst cymbalta will help with your mood and should help with depression I remember seeing your other post but dont remember where your at with kicking here just know it was huge that you dident take that script and your on your way to recovery have you detoxed yet??? if so great if not where all ready to help good luck and God bless......Gnarly