First time quitting....

[billzngillz]

This is my first time kicking pain pills! I have been a few days without them before and gone through WD but this is the first time I have truss to quit I been clean for 5 days now and I'm not WD  but it just seems boring! Life kinda ***** off the pill! I quit to get my life straight and to get the love of my life back but now she won't have anything to do with me! Also I'm a firefighter and I'm trying to get another job at a new FD so that's why I'm kicking it but like I said life is a bore and I would just rather sleep! At least when I was high it was fun! Now what?

[jleeflcntrygrl]

You can do this!! You are worth it! Keep goin!prayers sent to you!!

[lulu747]

The 'fun' of which you speak is just your addiction talking.  Sure you may have 'fun' when you are on pills (I didn't but was an addict just the same.  I was using to numb not just my physical pain but my emotional pain.  I had NO FUN.  I was just numb)  but I promise you this is just an illusion.  The FUN of pills turns into a horrific roller coaster of a ride that you do not want to experience.  You lost your gf.  You can lose your job, your home, all your money and real friends and eventually if you do not stop- your life.
There is no fun there my friend.  You need to get into some aftercare and find out how to fill the void inside of you with real life things that bring you true joy.
Life on pills is not living.  It's just existing.  Trust me, there is so much more to life and you really have to give yourself the opportunity to discover what you are made of.  It's hard.  It takes patience.  But trust me when I say you will have no real love or joy until you put down the pills and make a commitment to living the clean life.  You will be surprised at what you will find.
Lu

[msdelight]

I remember when I was using I would see people on the street just laughing or talking or going about their business and I would think wow how can anyone do that without being on drugs! Ridiculous now but sadly that is how I thought. Now I am one of those people! Life is NOT a bore nor is it impossible to have fun without opiates. Its just more lies your addict brain tells you! Hang in there, your girlfriend and your new job are doing you a tremendous favor. Don't give up!

[jifmoc]

Firstly, 3 cheers for what Weaver wrote, that was excellent advice.

But, I just want to let you know I posted the identical question as you yesterday: I'm so effin bored, I can't stand this. This is a life? What life! Same as you. Everyone keeps telling me this is normal and just time and SLOWLY try new things. Baby steps for new things.

Isn't it amazing that we all seem to have the patience of a gnat when it comes to this? But, trust me, you are not alone, I am feeling 100% where you are, too. I'm just gonna read everyone's answers!

[weaver71]

I second the above, you have to quit for yourself. So, pills create the illusion that life is more fun, without having to work for it. If you ever want to have a relationship, it isn't fair to bring someone into the world of addiction. I see how my wife and kids were effected now, though I really couldn't see it while using, because even though things were horrible, I felt fine with it, I would say, "lighten up, let's just have fun." Simply watching the sunset could have been fun for them, but it ruined it by them knowing the real me wasn't actually there at all. Anyway, it took me awhile to learn how to have fun again, I had forgotten how. I had to pick up hobbies and do things sober for awhile to get the hang of it. As I created new sober memories, I had a new way to measure fun. I had to make friends who have sober fun. I had to discover all the real reasons I used drugs and work on those things. Most people don't use drugs for one reason. For me, it was emotional and physical pain, it was mental and spiritual pain, I used for way more reasons than for fun. It takes time to really be at peace again after being on drugs a long time. But, you didn't go one day and train and then you were a fire fighter. You had to learn, do exercises, and watch veterans of fire fighting, after a lot of work and commitment, you finally achieved what you set out to do. Not all of it was fun nor easy, but the result is all that matters. It's the same with recovery or having fun, you have to commit to it and take the steps to reach that goal. Maybe your consequences are not bad enough to quit for yourself, YET. Addiction is progressive, tolerance builds and pills eventually barely make you feel okay, not happy or fun. Some people see the danger in advance and quit before the consequences get real bad. Not me, I took opiates until I was almost dead, my lungs stopped a few times. It took years to get to that point, but that's the reality, it's not a matter of if, but when. I have yet to meet an addict who used for many years and built a high tolerance that would say taking pills is fun. I encourage you to think this through, you asked, "now what?" So what is the best and worst case scenario if you keep using? What is the best and worst case scenario if you stay clean? How would quitting benefit you, not your relationships or work, but you as a person?

[motye51]

It's interesting that you say that b/c I remember saying the same damn thing. This **** is boring!!!!  If you can find local N/A or A/A meetings in your area I believe you will find a whole group of people, just like you, that are always doing fun, interesting things together and clean to boot!  I believe that where your at mentally is totally normal, b/c your brain doesn't have the stimulant anymore.  I was told, in the very beginning, that it takes approximately 90 days for the brain to truly reboot and get back on track, so hold tight and keep going forward!

[saspan]

it sounds like maybe you should try a meeting. I don,t think you quit for the right reason. you have to quit for yourself before anyone else.if you keep thinking the way your thinking your not gonna make it very long. got any friends that have had addiction problems. remember if you are an addict you,ll have to change almost everything. remember change does,nt happen overnight. go out and shoe your gf you have changed. good luck. take it one day at the time.peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!