Rough night

[Cassie415]

I am really craving oxycontin tonight, . I keep getting all these texts about if I want to buy some. I am so emotionally/physically drained from not sleeeping and it scares me how one day you can be feeling so great and the next you can be a moment away from a relapse. I just want to stop so bad but I think this always happens to me around this day every time I try to stop because the no sleep thing really starts to mess me up, it's been 8 days now, almost 9 and I haven't slept in a few days and my heart feels like its just non stop racing like i'm so on edge. My eyes are so tired I am like seeing black dots, I am just hoping I can get some sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow feeling better. If anyone has any good advice/motivation it would really helpp

[jstntime]

Hey Cass,

I agree with above about the great advice I've seen from you.  I am also on day 9 at the moment and have slept only several hours in the past 4 days.

Do not lie in bed and toss and turn---very frustrating.  try and get comfy and watch a movie or keep reading here.  If you start feeling peaceful,close your eyes for a bit and take some deep breaths.  This too shall pass.

I know exactly where you're at Cassie and feeling it too.
Keep up the good fight Cassie, you've come SO far!!!!

bob

[Holliee]

you have made it 8 days honey that is wonderful and being in other room would be so hard on me also prob kill me thinking about it also. tell your rommate to not let you know when he/she is going to get to hard on you. Stay strong and look up!!! God will get you through and if your not strong enough to walk he will carry. I agree w/others get rid numbers they are bad, Best luck
Holliee

[stilltrying1965]

when me and my wife first started c/t a hadt o switch my phone off as the dealers  just kept phoning and that was a real bad thing for us if you dont want to change your number switch the phone off it helped me and kim a great deal good luck cassie and cassie when you do sleep you willhave the best sleep ever we went 15 days without sleep but when sleep came boy did it come and a really enjoyed itso dont worry its agetsting i know but will be worth it in the end stay strong cassie James and Kim

[avisg]

Yeah turn it off until get the number changed  that will give you some peace .You dont need that at this point of recovery.

[bmdad]

So sorry things are getting tough for you. It seems like we all hit that one really tough day or night. It just happens at different times for everyone. Remember that tomorrow is another day and wont be as bad. It always seems like when we have a real bad day, the next one eases up a bit. I know the last 9 days have been miserable but you are so close to hit the turning point. You don't want to let these past 9 days go to waste because you if you relapse you'll eventually have to go through the days again. Just keep up the good fight and know it will get better. I'm proud of you Cassie and you should be as well. Hang in there hun. You'll get through this and you are so close!

[worried878]

stay focused cassie..when u crave get busy..go for a walk, but move..the typical craving lasts less than 15 minutes..so try ur best to let it pass...if u sit and dwell on it ..then the craving will sit and dwell on u...or go to a meeting..or have someone to call to help u..or post here..just do sumpin other than use..u will feel awful after u cave..it wont be as fun as ur brain its telling u it will be..it will make u feel like a failure...dont do it
list the reasons u quit..keep them close..list them here cos i am not sure of the reasons u quit?...keep those reasons close to ur heart