Scary World

[OXYFIEND]

It's day 9 off the oxys for me and I've been having such a difficult time coming to the scary realization that I cannot allow myself to experience that euphoric rush and every other blissful feeling that comes with the high ever again. If I do I most certainly will fall right back into the fiery pits of hell. I have noticed how boring life is lately and I am overwhelmed with anxiety. I am also more depressed that I have ever been in my entire life. I am going to miss how great I used to feel when I used to get high but I know I have made the right decision. Sometimes it just feels so wrong though and without the pills I feel almost as if I don't belong in this world. I just don't know where to find pleasure anymore. I'm uncomfortable. I'm lost. When will I find myself again? I know it's early in my recovery but when will things start really getting better and what the hell do I do until then?

[TooManyOxyz01]

Must have doubled clicked or thought you needed to read it twice,  :)

[TooManyOxyz01]

HELLO I MUST BE YOUR TWIN, i had the same feelings and thoughts. Today is day #14 for me off of oxy's, for the first time in ages I went into a clothing store and filled the cart with new clothes, most of which just happened to be on sale. Then I got in my truck and just drove around looking at new buildings and new homes that have probably been there forever but, to me they were new. I turned on my stereo system to max. volume and heard "the music" it had also been there all along!!!!!!!!!!!

I too fantasized and remembered what I thought were the good feelings but, just today I felt the good feelings from my soul without any chemicals in me but food preservatives, WOW!!!!!! was it ever wonderful, the day will come for you too, just don't use and believe.

I am here for you if you need an ear, sometimes during the last 14 days I could have even needed a shoulder, you are almost there, you have to stay strong and believe!!!!!

Let me hear how it goes..............

Betterdays are ahead.....................
Don

[TooManyOxyz01]

HELLO I MUST BE YOUR TWIN, i had the same feelings and thoughts. Today is day #14 for me off of oxy's, for the first time in ages I went into a clothing store and filled the cart with new clothes, most of which just happened to be on sale. Then I got in my truck and just drove around looking at new buildings and new homes that have probably been there forever but, to me they were new. I turned on my stereo system to max. volume and heard "the music" it had also been there all along!!!!!!!!!!!

I too fantasized and remembered what I thought were the good feelings but, just today I felt the good feelings from my soul without any chemicals in me but food preservatives, WOW!!!!!! was it ever wonderful, the day will come for you too, just don't use and believe.

I am here for you if you need an ear, sometimes during the last 14 days I could have even needed a shoulder, you are almost there, you have to stay strong and believe!!!!!

Let me hear how it goes..............

Betterdays are ahead.....................
Don

[LQQKThrewU]

These days will eventually pass. Just try to block the negative feelings when they rear their ugly displays. Long term dependency truly alters who you are as a person and it will certainly take time to recover as it did not just take a couple of days to get to this point either. Post often,we are here for you.

[OXYFIEND]

I just started taking a multivitamin and I joined the gym yesterday. I plan on forcing myself to go at least 4 days a week. I have also been eating healthy and drinking alot of water. What is your situation and what kind of amino-acids do you reccomend?

[GoingToMakeIt]

I am not sympathizing over these woes. The euphoria would have ended eventually. and then just the stupid drugs are left. It's not a pretty site for me. I don't miss them.
As far as the depression goes. Are you taking any of the amino-acids that help with mood? Or the vitamins and minerals that would help to rebuild the body that was abused by drugs? I do recommend that you take them. They do help.

[IBKleen]

Hello and Welcome!

Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal. You  have spent a lot of time destroying your body and mind, and it will take time to heal.

As far as being bored....well, that is what you make it. Life does not end when you stop using drugs, it begins. I can suggest a hobby, or something that you used to love doing.

Also, and I always stress this: Aftercare. Get the help and support you will need to get to the issues that caused you to use drugs in the first place.

Glad you are here. Good luck and keep posting!!