Still looking for Chezz

[suzieneedshelp]

Chezz..we all are lookin for ya!  Thoughts, prayers are for you all the way...Hope you are getting some relief hon.
Suzie

[FesterTool]

Hey. Thanks for the encouragement. I know its not health to stay isolated, hiding from everyone, but then again, its not healthy to do the drugs either. I'm looking forward to the time that when I see them,(drugs) I can pass them up without a second thought. I dont think Im ready to try though. I'll just lay low for a few more days. Hopefully I manage to stay strong. How is everyone else doing? bmac? pixi? Hopefully everyone is doing well.
Festertool

[peaz]

And you should be proud of yourself!!!!  Before you know it you'll have weeks under your belt.  I feel like I basically hide, too--but it's the safest (not necessarily the healthiest emotionally) way to be.  We know we can't trust ourselves in the face of temptation, right?  I was reading a post a couple of days ago from Moxy-Oxy, and she (? I think) was saying how she usually looks forward to weekends, but now that we aren't partying, it's a real let-down.  I can SOOO relate.   It's really hard not to feel sorry for yourself and believe that sobriety is this wonderful thing...........I guess I had to adapt at being high all the time at first, too, so I'll try and give this a good attempt, too.  It's hard.  You hang in there and hope you have a good week.  Peaz

[FesterTool]

I am sorry I didnt post anything this weekend. I pretty much locked myself in my bedroom so I wouldnt go to a weekend party or anything. It's been since last thursday since I've done any meth or pills. I am sorta proud of myself. Everybody else stay strong!
Festertool

[oldtimer]

Good Morning Everyone
I wrote a long messege the other day and it was deleted, I'm sorry I don't have the strength this morning to rewrite it, I will just write a quick rundown, I used to come on here all the time about1-2yrs ago, thomas, maybe you will remember by the comment you made to me a long time ago you said, "there is a hospital bed with you and your hubby's name on it waiting for you" I remember telling everyone that I had a heart attack and was worrying if my heart could take the severe w/d symptoms, I was and still am addicted to oxycontin only much worse now..besides my heart disease I have many more chronic ailments.
I have tried many times to go clean (due to running out of meds)I have taken control somewhat of my meds..but still not taking exactly as prescriped..I can not go clean, I have gone 11 days only to continue to get worse with each day not better, I have alot of stomach issues,(ulcers ect)so I don't think it's just w/d don't you think after 11days clean if it was just w/d I would have felt a little better?? I'm sorry if I'm not making a sense, I don't know where to start,I know that when I was involved with this board I felt better mentally when I had someone to talk to..would like to become involved again, thanks anyone who is reading this,I have other "med" issues..the other reason I wrote "oldtimer" is because I feel so old inside..
Dee

[GOD]

Hey, Mr. (Thomas)

Thanks for your encouraging posts aimed MY WAY like an Iraqi scud at a Synagogue in downtown Jerusalem! (to put it in current "world-events terminology" as you put it)--

I just thought of something intriguing to ME, at least: In reading your posts, one can see the high level of gray matter poking out in-between a funny line and a factual, or even serious, statement. I put one of your older postings through a Lexography [lexicon comparative] program of mine and compared it to a few paragraphs of one of Dennis Miller's latest works. We hit the upper 90th percentile that the compared works were, indeed, the same author. Strange

[GOD]

Great to see you BACK & POSTING!

Geez, You're gone for a few days, Chezz, and all of a sudden, we oldtimers(Skipper, Irish Rose, NOD, Thomas, myself and MANY other compassionate knowledgable people have to "step up to the plate" for ya! Don't you remember the assignment I gave you, buddy?

NA step 12:
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Now, Get back to WORK! You started out really good here... All the right things to say, and such. You're makin' me have to start posting too much again. And THAT, my friends, is an addiction all to its self!

GET WELL post MORE!
Jess