I too jumped from a pretty high dose of subs and I will be as honest as I can be regarding how long it took me. 3 days before real w/d kicked in then took roughly 3/4 weeks for the physical part to stop but after that was a total mind ****!!!! I started going to n/a which I swear to God made my brain feel somewhat better! Actually physically feel better! It took about the 3 month mark for my "head games" to start to subside. I have now been off the subs almost 5 months. I swear to u it does start to get better. I would think if u have been diagnosed with depression, the subs and tapering and jumping off are adding to it.
It's a game that your mind and the drugs play!!!! It's not a fun game, for sure, but to win, you must not listen to those thoughts! Your on an awful lot of meds, does your Dr that prescribes the adderall and clonopine and benzos, also prescribe u the subs? Maybe its time to sit down with a new Dr, show him your list of meds, and come up with a plan of attack!
Just remember, this part WILL PASS!!!!
GOOD LUCK TO U AND KEEP US POSTED!