I have had a rough few days myself. Been a real battle over morals and values with me. A few times i have just thought screw it but i got my butt up and got busy and turned on my music. Its very draining to say the least. What is important is each night when i go to my tracker and hit that big fat zero. Each day i get up is a brand new day clean. When i finally get to the top of the mountain im still going to dance like noone is watching!!!!
Good post Gizzy!!!! sara
you are all very strong people. I am looking form the outside in and let me tell you. YOU ARE ALL WINNERS!! I hope my brother canfind this strength inside himself. I am trying eveything to pull it out of him. I remind him of the good times. when he was sober. He remembers.. it breaks his heart...
So funny that you asked THIS question today. Just yesterday I had to face my ex-boyfriend's mom, who lived w/me during my use of fentanyl, and ask for her forgivness. I say I had to do this and by that I mean I had to do it for myself. Needless to say, my actions while high out of my mind on fentanyl were not pretty and I am still in therapy and will be for a long time to get over the shame and guilt of what I put my daughter and family through. Everytime I face a craving, a person I need to make amends with or complete another group meeting or therapy session I feel stronger and more in control of my addiction. I know I will be an addict for the rest of my life, but I can control my addiction instead of my addiction controlling me. And that is what is the most important thing to remember, for me anyway.
That`s how i feel, like i climbed MT. Everest, haha. I didn`t mean getting tested for drugs , i meant tests like being tested. example a couple times i was out and i walked in on people doing coke, i had to leave, i was being tested. Does that make sense. it`s still early though, lol. another test could be when i read people on here tell their doctor`s no more pills, that is a test. Glad your doing well lady67
That is a great post.
When I make it through a tough situation without using anything, I feel like I just climbed Mt. Everest. I have never had to take a drug test so can't really comment there. Can you believe it, I was using for 15 years and NEVER was given a drug test? Sometimes I wished I would have and maybe I would have decided to get clean sooner.