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how do I stop
I started taking opioids for pain due to work/sports injuries 7 years ago. for at least the last 5 of those years, I haven't needed them except for how they make me feel. I typically consume the 90 pills that I get from my Dr. in about 2 weeks. after that I go through with drawls or buy what I can off the street. this monthly cycle is killing me, my marriage, my family and my bank account. why cant I control myself like so many people seem to be able to.
I want to stop, but even after 3 weeks of being clean, I can't stop thinking about taking/getting pills. if I could just get my mind to stop nagging me about more. I am truly broken. how do I stop?
I want to stop, but even after 3 weeks of being clean, I can't stop thinking about taking/getting pills. if I could just get my mind to stop nagging me about more. I am truly broken. how do I stop?
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I have been clean for almost a week now. I have put the fatigue and diarrhea behind me for the most part. I went on the HBO sight and read everything and watched the videos. I have burned all my sources. where do I go from here?
Thanks so much for taking the time to reply.
I stumbled onto this website and felt a little better just reading about other people. I will check out the site you recommended. I hope that a little info can go a long way.
I have spent most of my life lying to myself and others. This is going to take a major change in who I am. Im using today and I am happy, energetic and outgoing. I have more patience for people and a more positive outlook. I am not looking forward to loosing that.
I really cant talk to anyone in my life about this weakness that I have so I really appreciate your listening to me.thx
I stumbled onto this website and felt a little better just reading about other people. I will check out the site you recommended. I hope that a little info can go a long way.
I have spent most of my life lying to myself and others. This is going to take a major change in who I am. Im using today and I am happy, energetic and outgoing. I have more patience for people and a more positive outlook. I am not looking forward to loosing that.
I really cant talk to anyone in my life about this weakness that I have so I really appreciate your listening to me.thx
If possible have your wife keep your script for you and have her only give you the daily amount you are supposed to take each morning. Tell her that no matter how much you beg NOT to give in to you. If you are not in pain then maybe you should taper off of them. One day you may really need the pain relief and it will not work like it should.
My tolerance is through the roof so seeking that euphoria or spurt of energy I used to get when taking my meds is impossible. I just have to keep telling myself that. Some people go 4 days on their meds and 3 days off in order to keep their tolerance down. Personally, I am just sticking to taking it as prescribed because no matter what, 1 is better than none for 2 weeks. there is also that possibility that I can get called in for a drug screen at anytime. I really need the help with pain so I do not want to lose that.
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Your experience is like many of us......you said "why can't I control myself like so people seem to be able to?"
I wondered the same thing about myself....why could my husband have major surgery...take pain pills for a short time...and then quit yet I could not? My answer: because my brain chemistry is different and I am an addict. He isn't an addict....he didn't get hooked on the euphoria; I did~
You may want to learn some about addiction and then you won't be so hard on yourself. Understanding addiction helped me A LOT!! Here's a good link to get you started:
http://www.hbo.com/addiction/
Click on all 6 of those tabs at the top....and there are short 2-3 min. videos on the right of each article. I learned SO MUCH there....understanding addiction, myths of addiction, stigmas of addiction, treatment for addiction, on and on. It was a great starting place.
Then, you have to decide if you are ready to be done. If you are....you have to cut off your sources.....tell your dr and your street sources too.
You can do it.....reading posts here, learning some tips to aid you thru the w/drawal process, encouragement, etc.
Keep posting.....do lots of reading here on the forum. We have one REALLY amazing forum here like no other. I learned so much just by reading and participating in posts and asking questions. You can too.
Freedom can be yours.....the power of choice is a wonderful thing~