Am I strong enough?

[sphynxs]

So, tomorrow I go to see a new podiatrist. One who doesn't know anything about my addiction history. I am sooooo worried that I may not have the strength to tell him not to prescribe me any narcotics. I mean I don't want to go back to using, but how tempting that is!!! I mean you guys have all been so supportive, and I love it. But only one of you truly knows me. Do I have what it takes to do the right thing?

YOU'RE GOD DAMN RIGHT I DO!!! I AM STRONG ENOUGH TO SAY NO!! I WILL NOT GO BACK TO BEING THE WAY I WAS! WON'T HAPPEN. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME, I'M IN CONTROL. SO FOR ANY OF YOU THAT READ THE TOP PART AND WAS GONNA TELL ME NO I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH....... KISS MY IMPERFECT ***!!

LOL. That felt good. I was just venting guys, you know I have much love for my MH peeps.

John

[dominosarah]

I would tell the doctor straight up you are an addict.  Being honest is very important in our recovery.

Be proud of your accomplishments and stay true to yourself.....

Congrats on 21 days!!!!!           sara

[gnarly_1]

hey john congrads on 20 days clean...I to suffer with chronic pain in my back...but
once your off the narcotics a wile you will start to see that otc stuff like motrin actually
works your body just has to reset its pain clock and once the rebound pain is gone
the otc stuff starts to work...also there are alot of new pain meds on the market now that are non narcotic to try out...they block the pain to brain channel and work differently
then narcotics mabe ask the dr about one of them...good luck and God bless...Gnarly  

[sphynxs]

Thank you pharm, I will do just that.

I love the advice I get here.

John

[pharma9]

Just tell him you are allergic to opiates and if needed only order an antinflammatory or even otc pain meds if needed.Antiinflammatories do as good a job as any narcotic without the rebound pain.I know cause I have pain in my feet and take otc pain meds with no rebound pain.

[joycee418]

You keep your sprits up!!!! You can do it and You are on your way!!! NO NEED TO GO BACK TO  NASTY NARCOTICS..... Yes, while you take it, feels good alright, but you know to get off is HELLLLLL. Trust me I was on them for 14 years, due to 2 car accidents. I had to go to treatment and it cost me and arm & leg. SO-TO ALL THOSE WHO DID WITHOUT TREATMENT, HATS OFF TO EVERYONE!!! KEEP IT UP!!! NASTY BLUE PILL. God Bless and I will keep you in my prayers!

Adios

[Charetti]

Its wonderful that you are strong but a wee prayer before your appt wouldnt hurt.  God works miracles when we really need it.  Hes pulled me past a few temptations.

[stilltrying1965]

PSML thats a good one,,,,,,,,James

[sphynxs]

OMG. ROFLMAO!!!  GOOD ONE.

No worries mates.... I will do the right thing. I'm in this for the long haul.

Thanks to all of you for your support. It means the world to me!

John

[beatingthis]

Rock on my friend!!!

Terry

[Radiostar55]

John, Thats the spirit!! Don't let the mental demoms start talking to you when your at the appt..Remember John does all the talking....Speaking of Doctors..What did the Doc say when he found the rectal thermonter in his pocket?  "Oh Shite, Some AZZHOLE' got my Pen!!!

G

[rafe44]

U damn right u can do it! i can tell that the pain of ur addiction is still fresh enough in ur head to not want to go through that hell again. But when i comes down o it. You have to take action. U can do it!

[sphynxs]

You are right James. I will be posting  21 days clean tomorrow. You wait and see buddy. Thanks, your're a good friend.

John

[stilltrying1965]

Rember your 20 CLEAN DAYS my friend Rember that. Rember those 3 beautiful faces Rember them Rember what it was like w/ding.Rember when you see the dr NO OPIATES Rember that John  You know your strong enough. I know you are strong enough.You are winning Keep winning So with those in mind John you cannot and will
not fail tommorrow .I know you will post here tomorrow still DRUG FREE ......James
P S I will be watching for your post tomorrow to see how it all went my friend......

[HoldenCaulflower]

I guess that's my answer to my question in my previous post. I totally see where your coming from. When I start getting down on myself or I have a dream about standing in line at the clinic and that miserable nurse yells "next single dose!" and I can almost taste the Methadone slipping down my throat. I get a positive anger in me and I wanna yell, "It's not F-ing worth it!"

[avisg]

I am so glad to hear all of the strength in your voice its great !!!! Remember recovery care too its very important to have everything we can to keep our recovery on track

[sphynxs]

EXACTLY! I will do just that. Thank you

John

[sharzi]

Hey John!!

HELL YA YOUR STRONG ENOUGH!!  That sneaky little addict voice is always going to be whining at us that we just we can't live without those pills, that we might as well just give in and get a prescription.  BULL SHITE!  Just keep telling it to "get behind thee" and let the real strength come in!!  When you get into the office.. tell the doctor straight away (like the first thing out of your mouth!!) that you can NOT have narcotics/and or addictive drugs.  That way you put yourself a step ahead of the deceiving little addict that will try anything to trick you into "just one more time".

- one time is too many.. a thousand never enough!