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The battle.. GOOD and EVIL
Thank you all for helping me through my terrible, terrible, mood swings. After reading through all the posts and things I am determined to Take control of my moods. Someone said HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE... Ok, I'm happy (putting on a smile and fake it it til I make it) I feel like I'm caught in a war between good and evil. The better I do the worse my bad angel screams in my ear. I haven't learned how to shut him up ( u know the one, he says YOUR MISERABLE, TAKE A PILL , WHO ARE YA HURTING, U Want ONE.,,etc AND WORSE) My self esteem is shot but my good angel says loud and clear YOU MAY NOT CARE ABOUT YOURSELF RIGHT NOW BUT YOUR LITTLE GUYS LOVE YOU, COUNT ON YOU, AND LOOK UP TO U. Hey, I know I sound insane but truly I NEVER WANT MY KIDS TO EXPERIENCE THIS HELL so I tell the bad angel to STFU and I sign on to MH where I KNOW that no matter what I say or try to explain. SOMEONE WILL "GET IT". I'm always amazed to realize that my situation isn't unique. Some brave soul has already fought this demon and WON! I can't express how much you all have come to mean to me and I thank u. I truly hope that someday, someway, I will be of help and inspiration just like you guys are to me. Ok, no more rambling. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you understand what I'm trying to say yet couldn't really find the right words to express. LETS ALL HAVE A GREAT DAY!! COME ON, EVERYBODY TOGETHER AND LETS SEE THE HAPPY DANCE...... ;) ROSY
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Ha!! It is when my Moose up here eat Huckleberry but unfortunately they are not ripe in the winter..Moose means Shrub eater. I will be putting more pics in this winter.. So you got a big purple kiss from a moose..lol
LMMFAO soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo HARD! I don't know exactly what a huckleberry moose kiss is but RIGHT BACK AT YA babe!
These pom poms are super glued to my hands (kind of difficult to type at work) :p
Tell that dark angel to kick rocks!! You've been so strong and really pulled through all the lows and come out on the other side stronger (and funnier). Hahaha! Laughter has been key in helping me through this and without you making me laugh I don't know what I would do!! You've been awesome to me and so many others and I can't wait for the day to come when it gets easier for you and your struggle lessens. You deserve it so much :).
Rosy, my friend, posting this & expressing yourself is half the battle. I agree with my friends above. You've got a lot of fight & a great sense of humor. (So important!) When that black dog comes whispering I always ask myself 'Annie, what's your habit trying to trick you into know? What lie is it telling you?'. I've found that reaching out & redirecting myself is essential -- to not get trapped with it in my head -- not let it build. Reaching out is difficult for me but even if it's to close friends it helps. I've got to examine why I resist things every day & make adjustments accordingly. I find exercise, music & meditation really helpful when I get stressed/triggered. (& that happens a lot sometimes! [smile]) Anyway, I've come to understand that these things won't kill me (unless I act on them!) Keep up the great work!
Rosy, You already have inspired and helped others, and have been since day one here on MH. And the dang 'bad angel' - it never goes away, but your 'good angel' gets stronger and stronger. I know that my good one is still swatting away that pesky bad one from time to time. And I agree with Dane; when you are feeling down, do something distracting - love the music/singing idea. I do kinda the same thing on my dreadmill - turn up the volume on some Guns N Roses or other crazy, loud rock song. Within a few minutes I am feeling better. I think you are doing great and I love your sense of humor. Keep that intact and you are going to be just fine :))
Rosy, Yep, i know exactly what your talking about, i have the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other, and they just love to battle it out... When it gets bad, do know that it will stop eventually so do somthing to distract yourself during that mental battle. For me, i literally went in the car and blasted some music rolled down the windows and just sang my heart out, yeah i am sure i looked like a crazy lady to others but it sure helped my angel defeat that devil...:-) You are doing great, keep on reminding yourself of all the good and how important you are.
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