Thoughts about the cycle of using...

[cork712]

As my brain clears, I am seeing what so many have said: 1 is too much, 1000 never enough. In my life I have been a "finisher-upper" (a word?). In my late teens, 20's it was alcohol. What was there, was emptied. Stopped at 29. for a couple years, mid-80's, is was coke. Luckily realized that was deadly and tossed it, stopped immediately. So then I was sober for over 20 years, but alway finishing every latte, coffee, food treat! So when I took Fioricet for my head, there was no slow down 4 years ago. Now it's not here and I don't crave it. What the heck makes some of us feel like clearing out whatever is in front of us? I'm not that way about food. Must just be mind altering things. Anyway, it's good to know that about myself. Gee, only has taken years to figure that out. maybe for me it has to be out of reach, out of sight, out of mind. Anyone else found this so? Oh yea, got obsessed with exercise for a while too in early 20's!  Suggestions for healthy obsessive hobbies? I see a theme....Who has done something like this?

[ricart70]

I guess I am just different because I do everything at about 50% lol
I get things done that I have to do and don't really get obsessed with any one thing or behavior.I guess because I am not really intently interested in much of anything.Wow that kinda sounded downerish but that is the way I am mostly.

[T2112]

cork712 ... I am the same way. When in a band I feel like we must record and release a CD, hit the bar scene playing out, go on the road, etc. If not I am almost uninterested in playing. When my daughter wanted to start playing softball I became the coach, established an ASA travel team for girls who could not afford to pay to play, and entered ASA tournaments in multi-states. I could not seem to just coach at the Town level. I had a great corporate job that I could have cruised through at an excellent salary BUT because I wasn't running the show I ended up leaving. Not because I wasn't in charge but because I couldn't stay doing the same thing without moving up the ladder quicker. Now, when it came to Fioricet, if the max does per day on the Rx was 12, then I moved up to 12 and beyond.  

The odd thing is when it comes to smoking pot I do the same thing but then stop as abruptly as I start. A few years ago it was almost daily then one day nothing for 6 months. I don't know what make us do what and why? I just know, for me, if there is something to be done I have to do it 110%, good or bad, or I quickly become uninterested. In someways it has helped my career but in others, like say Fioricet, it wasn't the best of traits in me. I think it's fun to try to understand why.

[mary577]

I am obsessive about some things.   I am an all or nothing sort of person.   I am either crazy about something or have no interest in it at all.   I took Loratabs for five years and I liked them, but I seldom took more than what I was prescribed, but I have always been concerned about good health, and I could see that I was inching up on the Loratabs, so with my concern about my health, I quit cold turkey.    I was sick, but I have never really had a desire to go back to them.   I have often said...put a table in front of me....put narcotics, alcohol, marijuana, and a cake.    I would take cake.    I have smoked pot and drank, but never to excess.    I guess I am just not wired that way.    It isn't hard for me to stay away from them....and again....I think it goes back to my "obsession" about my health.