To All of My Fellow Addicts on Oxycontin......PLEASE READ!

[happytoday]

For nine months I was abusing oxys. In the end, right up until the the time my wife drove me to the treatment center, I was crushing a 20mg oxy every other hour, needless to say, my wife only thought that I was losing my mind! I had tried for almost two days to cut myself off cold turkey, because I am an addict, the taper method did not work for me. Instead, my disease, and my sickness progressed to the point where my life was in danger. Anyone who is crushing a time released tablet and getting the full strength at once is putting a life at risk.

I had to pick up after two days, until I was admitted to the treatment center where I was detoxed in 72 hours. NO! It was not an easy thing to do to pick up a phone and call a treatment center and beg for help! NO! It was not easy telling my two daughters ages 19 and 26 that I , there Father, was  abusing Oxycontin, NO! Its was not easy telling my wife that I relapsed into my addiction for about the fifth time in five years on opiates!
  
I was detoxed on the following meds: Darvocet,Catapress,Robaxin, and finally Phenobarbital. Please hear me when I say it was totally physically painless! But understand also that I was physically, spiritually, and mentally beaten when I arrived at the treatment center. The most important thing is that they took my vitals every four hours!

A miracle happened this morning, a week later, I got out of bed without taking a drug, and feel pretty human....see you all in Narcotics Anonymous!

[afriend]

Hey bud, keep tour chin up, the relapes is all part or trying. Look at all the great people here (and in the world) that have tried something then failed, came back, and conquered. I'm always honest and open about my drug use/abuse on this forum but I made the mistake of being honest with (my) Dr.,now he treats me like a piece of human waiste that is not worthy of any type of medication again.(long story) My point being is that if you can do this alone, and not have it follow your med. history around from office to office, do it. (ive heard this from others also).It changes the way (some) Drs treat you. This may not be your case and if you prefer to get medical help for this, than do so! Remeber everyones different, and detox (when and anyway) that YOU feel comfortable. Hey, lisabet is Kind, wonderful and wise, listen and post to her, she's great support and has a special way about her. I want to thank her for a very kind and loving post to me! My very best to you Gman, you sound very sincere and you will win your quest to be clean. I'd like to add some things but the ONE finger that I type with is tired and slow, ha. ha. Have a great day, talk soon? (smile dude)......a friend...P.S. Be very careful with benzos (zanax,valiun,ect.) long term use and sudden withdrawal can be fatal, unlike opiates.

[Wardman]

My doctor noticed big time I was fidgety, hence the reason he gave me the vicodin.  It was very noticeable and felt awful. He also gave me xanax.  So I think I will try the Thomas recipe.  I did have some pretty rough times with xanax after a tonsilectomy three years ago.  I was never addicted, never had an allure, never took it in the daytime, but I took one 1mg pill just about every night for about 6 months.  I stopped cold turkey and had a hell of 4 days!   So I am just gonna use it for the recipe.  I can not believe I have a healthy liver after all the pill comsumption. I am really lucky and I take it as a sign that I must quit soon.  Anyway, I am always honest... I will let you know when I try again.
God bless

G

[lisabet]

Hey G - Don't beat yourself up about the relaspe - Jesus, we've all done it.  Maybe you could try to taper with this refill; also, you won't feel panicky because you know you have them "in house".  I think just knowing you don't have the meds are enough in some peoples lifes to just send you into a "tailspin"...smile.   (Yes, I'm speaking of myself)... :)  Take care - keep posting. Love, Lisabet

[Wardman]

Again the thread I posted on is gone.  Just to update.. I relapsed after a day an a half. I may go get professional help.  I can not do this alone.  I want to thank each and everyone of you for your great support.  That is the reason I stay here.  I will keep you upcated.  It's just my pride and embarrassment that is stopping me from getting outdside inervention.  All I need to do is make it to day three and then I feel better.

[Wardman]

Thanks J.E.W!  Yes I have quit a few times before and I am definitely much better by day 11  and noticeably better after day 4.  Today was a horrible day.  I woke up after catnpping and taking 10 baths.  I was  sooooo antsy and fidgety.  I was tired but yet couldn;t sit still.  I can get through this. I DO KNOW that aftert being clean for a time is soo much better!  I am also blessed that after a few weeks, I don't even battle teh mental demons that alot of you do.  I feel better and my mind is clearer. I always get sad that people think there is no hope  always an addict.  I don't necessarily believe that mentally.  for example, Nicotine is a powerful drug.  I quit smoking 15 years ago. ( Yes, granted I was only 17, I was smoking 3-4 packs a day!)  I may never be able to have a cigarette again, but I DO NOT ever crave it. so mentally I fell happy.  I am hoping I will get the way with vicodin or other narcotics.  I was like taht in 1997, after one month, no cravings adn I even had a full bottle of percocets in my possession.  Bottom line I do think there is hope for all of us and by I get upset when people say it's a lifetime struggle.  Please don't think that way.  Change your lifestyles. I know I am in  position to preach as I just relapsed after 36 hours.  
   I also had blood work three months ago and I need to quit.  I am sooooo lucky mly liver counts are perfect after abusing all this tylenol.  God is telling me to get my life in order and I need support.  My big secret is no longer healthy.   Again, God or whoever you want bless you...I know how alot of you feel at times.  And as a lurker since 2001  I wish I had posted more.

[J. E. W.]

I know what you mean about the mental part. I dont really have the cravings anymore either. I didnt get depressed. But Im still antsy. I do sleep alot better. but during the day I feel like I took an upper or something. I cant sit still for very long I have to keep busy.I wonder how long it lasts.I know people who pay to feel this way,if I could get rid of it I would.  You take care my friend.,God bless you...   J.E.W.