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To All of My Fellow Addicts on Oxycontin......PLEASE READ!
For nine months I was abusing oxys. In the end, right up until the the time my wife drove me to the treatment center, I was crushing a 20mg oxy every other hour, needless to say, my wife only thought that I was losing my mind! I had tried for almost two days to cut myself off cold turkey, because I am an addict, the taper method did not work for me. Instead, my disease, and my sickness progressed to the point where my life was in danger. Anyone who is crushing a time released tablet and getting the full strength at once is putting a life at risk.
I had to pick up after two days, until I was admitted to the treatment center where I was detoxed in 72 hours. NO! It was not an easy thing to do to pick up a phone and call a treatment center and beg for help! NO! It was not easy telling my two daughters ages 19 and 26 that I , there Father, was abusing Oxycontin, NO! Its was not easy telling my wife that I relapsed into my addiction for about the fifth time in five years on opiates!
I was detoxed on the following meds: Darvocet,Catapress,Robaxin, and finally Phenobarbital. Please hear me when I say it was totally physically painless! But understand also that I was physically, spiritually, and mentally beaten when I arrived at the treatment center. The most important thing is that they took my vitals every four hours!
A miracle happened this morning, a week later, I got out of bed without taking a drug, and feel pretty human....see you all in Narcotics Anonymous!
I had to pick up after two days, until I was admitted to the treatment center where I was detoxed in 72 hours. NO! It was not an easy thing to do to pick up a phone and call a treatment center and beg for help! NO! It was not easy telling my two daughters ages 19 and 26 that I , there Father, was abusing Oxycontin, NO! Its was not easy telling my wife that I relapsed into my addiction for about the fifth time in five years on opiates!
I was detoxed on the following meds: Darvocet,Catapress,Robaxin, and finally Phenobarbital. Please hear me when I say it was totally physically painless! But understand also that I was physically, spiritually, and mentally beaten when I arrived at the treatment center. The most important thing is that they took my vitals every four hours!
A miracle happened this morning, a week later, I got out of bed without taking a drug, and feel pretty human....see you all in Narcotics Anonymous!
hey Greg, thanks for your post. I am doing well. I am going to NA/AA group meetings 4-5 days/week & really getting involved there + learning ALOT. I'm working on getting a sponsor there & have met with a couple of people about this part of my recovery program. Thanks for your encouragement & help. Made my day!
First, let me say that I am one of the fortunate people who knows how a year or two clean in Narcotics Anonymous feels - I've been there. That is my hope for today. No, I do not feel 100%, it may be months before I am able to feel 100% physically fine. However, in Narcotics Anonymous, I am leaning on others who can share their experience, strength, and hopes. It is true that one addict helping another is very therapeutic and relieves my pain. Just as my post has comforted someone I am sure. I have been to five meetings in three days, I've cried, and its helped. My family and I are now involved in a Family Program every Saturday for three weeks at the treatment center. However, it took this terrible relapse, and three years of relapsing to truly open everyone's eyes!
THIS WAS NOT RAPID DETOX!!!! I strongly feel that rapid detox is "BS". And so do most of the medical professionals at the detox unit I was in. Sure I feel like I could use some Methadone right now to relief some of my physical and mental pain, however I choose to take 600mgs of Motrin and attend meetings...it really works! Getting these medications from your doctor and detoxing yourself is the same as you trying to taper off of oxys yourself....do not be foolish! Get into a treatment center where they use this method or another "sane" approach where your vitals can be taken every four hours...and they will come looking for you, believe me! Let someone qualified administer your meds!
Please remember that normally it takes 72 hours for any chemicals to detox from your body. Naturally, after that you might not feel too great. However, this is life, and we don't always feel great! It may take months until we are fully feeling well.....one day at a time!
When I came home from detox a couple of days ago, I could hardly unpack my bags. Today, I went out to breakfast with my wife followed by a beautiful ride in the country and am feeling a bit better each day!THERE IS HOPE!
May god bless us all!
THIS WAS NOT RAPID DETOX!!!! I strongly feel that rapid detox is "BS". And so do most of the medical professionals at the detox unit I was in. Sure I feel like I could use some Methadone right now to relief some of my physical and mental pain, however I choose to take 600mgs of Motrin and attend meetings...it really works! Getting these medications from your doctor and detoxing yourself is the same as you trying to taper off of oxys yourself....do not be foolish! Get into a treatment center where they use this method or another "sane" approach where your vitals can be taken every four hours...and they will come looking for you, believe me! Let someone qualified administer your meds!
Please remember that normally it takes 72 hours for any chemicals to detox from your body. Naturally, after that you might not feel too great. However, this is life, and we don't always feel great! It may take months until we are fully feeling well.....one day at a time!
When I came home from detox a couple of days ago, I could hardly unpack my bags. Today, I went out to breakfast with my wife followed by a beautiful ride in the country and am feeling a bit better each day!THERE IS HOPE!
May god bless us all!
Sooo proud of you, you faced your demon, adnitted it, asked for hel;p and went through with it...have you ever tried NA before? I wish you the very best life has to offer clean, driving down the road feeling at peace instead of paniced, loving your wife and she loving you and your not feeling guilty, looking in your girls eyes and NOT feeling disappointed anymore, knowing your higher power and feeling at one with him. I pray you will think before you pickup again, instead pick up the phone and get help before you take anything again...God Bless you!! Thank youf or coming and haring your story with us!!
Greetings,
hap- I to came from a pretty serious oxy and perc habit, I take it you went through rapid detox, were you are under anesthesia and monitered by trained medical staff or awake and on the meds you mentioned. You are one of the lucky ones and you are right to be getting into NA immediately. It will be a huge support for when the desire to use hits you. Trust me, it will. Among a number of concerns with rapid detox are the statistics for relapse. As an addict, the pain of WD is a motivator not to use, I to go to NA, have sponser and am in the process of recovery. I am glad your WD were not to bad. Mine were weeks of pure hell. It takes alot of courage to face and beat the lie of the pills. look forward to hearing about you getting your life back. Congrats to you for what you are doing for you and your family.
unpilled- How are you doing, see how it works, one addict helping another is without paralell. You are sounding great. Are you going to any outside support groups. Cyberspace recovery is great, yet the real rewards come from being in peoples lives and reality. You are doing awesome and I am sure God has some great plans for you as you continue to recover.
Strength and Honor
Greg
hap- I to came from a pretty serious oxy and perc habit, I take it you went through rapid detox, were you are under anesthesia and monitered by trained medical staff or awake and on the meds you mentioned. You are one of the lucky ones and you are right to be getting into NA immediately. It will be a huge support for when the desire to use hits you. Trust me, it will. Among a number of concerns with rapid detox are the statistics for relapse. As an addict, the pain of WD is a motivator not to use, I to go to NA, have sponser and am in the process of recovery. I am glad your WD were not to bad. Mine were weeks of pure hell. It takes alot of courage to face and beat the lie of the pills. look forward to hearing about you getting your life back. Congrats to you for what you are doing for you and your family.
unpilled- How are you doing, see how it works, one addict helping another is without paralell. You are sounding great. Are you going to any outside support groups. Cyberspace recovery is great, yet the real rewards come from being in peoples lives and reality. You are doing awesome and I am sure God has some great plans for you as you continue to recover.
Strength and Honor
Greg
Wow. It is great to hear a story like that. I think I will try your doctors recipe if my addiction doctor will follow it.
My problems are that after detox, for a month or more, I am totally depressed, and I get freezing chills (four months now), and my mind is totally distracted by constant w/d feelings. Maybe it's b/c it was methadone. I don't know, but I am still really scared. I have been put back on a pain regimen, not abusing, not exceeding prescription, but still constant w/d's! Continued good luck to you and all. - freezing
My problems are that after detox, for a month or more, I am totally depressed, and I get freezing chills (four months now), and my mind is totally distracted by constant w/d feelings. Maybe it's b/c it was methadone. I don't know, but I am still really scared. I have been put back on a pain regimen, not abusing, not exceeding prescription, but still constant w/d's! Continued good luck to you and all. - freezing
what an ordeal you went through. glad you are feeling so much better so soon. i'm 28 days clean today & feeling good. I too have had multiple relapses and really want to focus on staying clean now. I don't think I have another withdrawal hell left in me. Would like to hear why you believe you relapsed 5 times in 5 years & how you plan to address staying clean this time? Hang in there!
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