Day One. Here I go, Again.

[monkey273]

I've just spent all day reading all these posts. I figured perhaps it would be healthy for me if I added one. I'm on day one of detox (again) and it's not so bad this time around. My usage at this point was approx. 60mgs of percocet a day plus whatever else I could get my hands on. I think this lasted for about five months or so. I know that tomorrow may be much worse but so far so good. I have to work tomorrow. I'm in the service industry. I've got some Aleve for the aches and pains, some immodium for the ***** (haven't gotten there yet!) drinking lots of water. A couple clonopin for panic. The worst part this time is the anger at myself for getting here again, and the emotional apathy combined with no energy. Alot of people on here have gone the sub route. In my experience most just get hooked on the subs, suboxone is to pills what methadone is to heroin.  I have withdrawn from oxycotin and percocet before. Once past the physical part, dealing with my own brain has always been the hardest. I want to stay clean and I probably need professional medical help. I have no insurance. I'm going to start going to NA again. Anyway anyone who's out there dealing with the same issues, good luck. Stay strong. Oh and the last post made me laugh. I'm a redhead too and my tolerance is thru the roof. Lucky me.

[monkey273]

Thanks for the response. The only reason i just got out of bed was to see if anyone had responded. I know I've got to hit meetings like crazy. So far this detox is not nearly as bad as the previous, which is awesome but makes me concerned that not everything has left my body yet. Maybe I'll get lucky this time. hahaaa. I was doing well in meetings for a awhile. It was "just a taste" mistake, combined with some serious stress that led down the slippery slope. Anyway, thanks for the support. Take Care.

[gnarly_1]

HI welcome back....wish it where on better terms but at least you know the ropes of detoxing
most people do well going to N/A and working the 12 step program the key is to not stop going when you think all is well and your  '''over it'' addiction dosent go away it lays in waiting for the right opportunity to come up and come back with a vengeance....stick with your aftercare when you got 6mo clean you can cut back on how many meetings you go to but dont quit going so many of our members have made this mistake and relapsed ...aftercare is critical good luck with your detox keep posting for support and stick out the aftercare and this should be your last detox......Gnarly