WITHDRAWALS ARE GETTING HARDER TO TAKE EXHAUSTED BEEN UP HAS TO BE 45 HOURS OR MORE

[halstead124]

im having harder and harder time trying to keep up and busy and not think about it then im so lost in my days having trouble with time start thinking when was my last norc it starts to consume me and it wasnt yesterday like i thought it was it was sunday and this whole time i thought it was last night ive been up so long with nothing in me since sunday so really start getting a little worked up then rember xanx take 1 calm down there also gone i got them out of the house so i wouldnt take all those start thinking and stressing about another night with no sleep im trying to do eveything people gave me advice for like trying to keep busy i did went to store drove around awhile trying to keep all that out of my head doing few things around house i still think about it jump in shower calm down a little but still a little on edge any advice or anything on to give me to sleep a little

[halstead124]

  I WAS DOING GOOD TO THAT POINT MY MIND JUST STARTED RACING IM A WHOLE DAY OFF PLUS SOME PERSONAL EVENTS WERE BROUGHT UP BUT AFTER ABOUT AN HOUR PLUS IM STILL UP SINCE SUNDAY MORNING IM PREETY GOOD NOW JUST CANT SLEEP IT HAS TO BE OVER 50 HOURS OR MORE

[laurel453]

i know you are worried about not feeling well in the future but i would ask you to focus just on each day for now, even for each hour. If you feel depressed in the future, you could always ask for a mild antidepressant to your doctor. Not selfmedicating with pills that are not intended for depression and make more harm than good on the long run. This is a mistake we all have made in the past, selfmedicating and getting ourselves into much worse problems like addiction so... step by step. Keep being positive on the present, you are fighting for a healthier YOU and this is worth it :)

[halstead124]

ya sorry been kinda a constant reminder in our house as we have been packing it up,still not thinking im gonna sleep for sure now i gave up my xanax so didnt mean to be rude just a bad experience for my whole family on top of all my great idea of becoming a junkie at 36 or 37, have a good night

[dominosarah]

I was just asking a question is all......Hope you get some sleep.

[halstead124]

oh im sorry i forgot i was having real bad panic attacks and was and still am up from sunday morning i needed one of my xanx but forgot sent them out of the house this morning because i want to be done with this start gettin more fired up the one of two people who are on my comment board and not the one that may have been a cop before but the other person on board was very cool i started to calm down and shes talking telling me you know you can do this so we went back and fourth then she ask me a question that nobody ever has i read it i instantly lite up i mean went off wich i do need to tell her im sorry for going off like that,so all  W/D feelings are replaced with something else and yes it did suck and was full of rage but after 15 20 minutes i felt preety good, really think about it my kids have to move from a house they grew up knowing i had to spend my retirement on bills on lack of good paying jobs to be 40 and  start all over youd be ok with that?

[halstead124]

are you asking me if i blame the guy who stoled every penny i had stuck me with back taxes the one that closed and drove my buisness in the ground ,making it so i have to leave my house my house and my kids have to maybe live in a apartment in the ghetto lovely south side chicago how nice oh and to qaok spent bought with all my money herion and shooting in his arm you know ive been up since sunday so ill just get to point ill shoot out around about number ball park it with debt plus cash bills for product i would have to say about real close to 50.000.00 dollars at least and lowballin 37,000.00 of my money so do i blame him for my situation a lttle bit.