Reread and reread what you wrote. I think it says all it needs too. 20 years is along time to deal with this. Walk away. Find someone other the same values as you have. Or just enjoy being you. You don't need that.
Oh honey, my best advice is to run...not walk...as far away from him. He is on a path to self destruction, and don't you dare let him take him with you. YOU have a bright future ahead. HE has nothing but addiction, health problems and financial despair in front of him.
I'm just guessing here, but I think what you're asking us is if he had feelings for his female drug buddy. Addicts in the thick of their addiction often find a girlfriend or boyfriend to use with. It's frequently not a frienship. They get into a full blown relationship with their enabling addict "friend." They tend to develop romantic feelings with the person they are using with. They have a common interest in using drugs, and therefore they "care" for each other by scoring more drugs and helping each other shoot up, things like that. From what you've described, it sounds very much like he was unfaithful to you.
You deserve so much better!
Hi Aquail. Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to read that your relationship went this way but I was glad to read you are no longer together as you deserve better. why does a addict need a girl addict ? obvious reasons such as sex, 8 balls are cocaine and heroin usually but can be with crank very sexual and not so obvious ones, Misery loves company.. you do not need to hide who you are and what you are doing..
My suggestion for you is to go to the Dr. and be tested for sexually transmitted disease and for Hep C as it is prevalent in the IV community's. I do not mean to scare you but it is a reality of your situation.. let us know how you are doing ok and Maybe see a therapist to help you get past this and make better choices in the future. I wish you well, lesa
I wish you well in the future. lesa
I think you should just move on. From the parts I could get from your post this has been going on for a few years. You need to move on with your life and find someone who appreciates you. He's a drug addict,until he quits the drugs will ALWAYS come first. If you decide to stick around And stay with him, i would check out a group called alonon. It's a group for people who have loved ones as addicts. Good luck to you!!