Day 3 Off Hells Pills (Addiction to Hydros)

[Reality_Check]

Well, here I am, started day 3 today. I have to say the sleep part it killing me! However, I also take Mellitonin for depression and that has a bad side effect for sleep. I tried skipping xanax last night and taking benedryl....no good! I feel asleep for about 30 min woke up and was up all night long. My work day starts early, I fell back asleep 1/2 hr prior to having to get up and go - I just couldn't ! I have not slept in what seems to be days already, but the wellbutrin may also be the culprit. Once I did pass out I think I managed 3 hrs?? so tired (from no sleep) its hard to know. I didn't have so much of the restless legs last night, a good thing. I had to call in and lie AGAIN! NOT GOOD! I am worried about what will come of that but I know if I don't take care of myself - I wont need a job cause I wont be here to enjoy the fruits of life, and work. Anyway, not sure how I feel today. I think a bit better, but SO exhausted, and its from the lack of sleep - not the pains. Still have a but of a chill here and there and appetite still in the gutter. I did manage to eat a muffin and glass of milk this morning for breakfast, wasnt too bad I guess. I didnt have to plow it down with a sling shot at least. My dreams are horrible on the few minutes I do sleep. Things that happened to me in my life that hurt, and hurt bad. I guess I was numb for so many years it never came at the time when it should have. I'm thinking of skipping the wellbutrin today to see if maybe I can sleep, but yet am worried its not a good idea, but I have to sleep and I am getting NONE it seems. I am remaining positive here, my life seems kinda off balance as I think my mind is clearing some fog. I am hopeful today will be better than yesterday. whew this is so tough stuff to get through - But I am in day 3 so that is a start, right? I hope so. Still find myself pretty sad or hear something that makes me tear, but hoping in time my brain will clear and I can put more and more things in to prospective as I go. I want this more than anything in the world!

[TakingAction]

Good for you, keep on keepin on.

It takes me two hours of tossing and turning every night before I fall asleep.  I find that if you just refuse to get out of bed, sleep will come.

If your lack of sleep is the worst symptom thus far, you are doing really well.  I could have thrown myself down a flight of stairs at day 4! lol kidding

Detox is relentless and it gets you in every way.  But you are well into this now, so stick with it and keep posting.  I promise that it will begin to get much easier in a few days!

Matt

[flmagi]

Hang in there, it will get better. We all know exactly what your going threw and can feel your pain, but you're strong and can get threw it. Stay strong.

[Reality_Check]

ok, took xanax, drank 1 beer, heh and managed to somehow get about 4  straight of sleep, need , 3 more than usual. very tired tho.AND hoping to fall back asleep shortly, any luck. Either way stsrtin day 4 today --- never been there, each day a tad better. RLS gone lastnight, just sleep issues, as uaual. Dreams still present...weird ones too! Hnging in there for the cont fight against devils meds.I realize that life will beat you to your knees and keep u there if we let it, this I am thimking it no exception. Its about how many punches u can take and keep moving forward, thats how winning is done. Its true. I am gonna try and listen to music for a few a hope to captue a few more hrs of sleep. Day 4 TODAY THOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

[nessyness]

Ill be starting day 3 right there with ya in the morning! Were on our way! I am getting sleepy myself but im having massive stomach cramps so i cant sleep till it passes...ughhh....Hang in there...We got this!......sending somezzzzzz s your way Nessa

[Reality_Check]

You people are the reason tomorrow I will start day 4. I may not sleep tonight, but I called my Doc and told them between what i was going through and the Wellbutrin I couldnt make heads or tales of the massive and consistent deprivation.  She said STOP taking wellbutrin, there will be no side effects, and maybe lessen the lack of sleep. It's a combo with me, two things keeping me away.One I cant control and one I am so far. Have a appt with her Monday for a med that wont cause sleep issues (Depression Meds) Ate a egg and biscuit this morning, mcdonalds for lunch, no appetite for dinner, yet. Had some energy, but emotions still very iffy. Coming out of a 8 year cloud is confusing more ways than I thought. Im keeping on oranges, and light meals, multi vitamin and lots of vitamin water - lots. Im hoping to god for sleep tonight, and maybe the odd dreams wont be back. All in all better than yesterday, hopefully tomorrow will be even better. The emotions have been numb for many years, and my basement is very full. I'm now starting to view which to keep, and which to take with me the rest of my life. I assure you the pills will be thrown out forever. I will NEVER go through this again - ever. Not sure it matters but havent been to bathroom in like a week.......didnt take one immodium expecting disaster...nothing. I'm now going to put in the most boring movie ever and hope it helps me sleep....alittle. Day 4 tomorrow, didnt make it this far,  ever. Not easy with out the encouragement from all of you on here. I will never forget and will surely pay it forward. I ll be back soon

[peaceinknowing]

As odd as it may sound right now, eating as much as you can while going through the WD symptoms is what helped me out more than I thought. Not only that, but keeping fluids in me at all times.

[daisy699]

I left you a note on ur other thread I had hoped u got a little sleep!! I no ur probably worried about work and rightfully so but just try and take care of urself right now and get mentally and physically back where you need to be everything else will work itself out and fall into place like it's supposed to be!! Keep fighting!!

[GA Guy]

It's not a good idea to stop your antidepressants while going through withdrawals. It can only add to the misery. The sleep problems are simply a withdrawal symptom and will get better with time. Please watch the Xanax as well. It's probably the most addictive of all benzos because of its short half life. Switching to Klonopin or Valum may be a better choice and will be easier to withdraw from when the time comes.

[Reality_Check]

I may just try that tonight. Still pondering a long drive for the weekend. Just not sure cause of my sleep issue. Be the ONLY one up at some one elses home, eeek. I am naturally thin, and putting on weigh has always been a problem. Now its so noticeable is *****. I am hanging though, just ate a frozen egg/sausage biscuit so Im trying to force food down my throat. Still dazed and confused some what for sure.

[nessyness]

First off congrats on day 3:) do try the melatonin for sleep though its worth a shot. Ive been tearing up myself i went to get a glass of Pepsi and started crying. I felt so silly! As for the weight i have lost about 20Lbs and thats the only good thing the pills gave me lol! Over time you should be able to put it back on usually its pretty easy to gain weight if you lost it fast! I just dont wanna gain mine back:), but its a small price to pay to have this 800Lb gorilla off my back! So keep on keeping on Reality...Were gonna beat this demon! ...sending hugs your ........Nessa

[Reality_Check]

I meant I take wellbutrin for depression, not mellitonin

[Reality_Check]

Also I am slim already and being on the BINGE i was on and work, I think i had lost 25 pounds. way too much for my build. I have to get that weight back on. Could those pills have caused that? I need more weight on my bones I dont like the way i look and people always comment on it - I am tired of it and it becomes very depressing and I am VERY self conscious about it anyway. Thought I would ask if that can be part of it - the pills