Great job Driver! I'm proud of you for getting this far and don't see you going back. This is my first time posting though I read it often for support. I'm on day 5 and proud of me cause I haven't been 5 days without vics in 6 years since my head on with a semi-truck. I'm in awe that you made it through naturally. Tried before and failed everytime. This time took many vitamins (B6, multi-vitamins,etc) and herbs (St. Johns Wort (for depression), Kava-Kava (for anxiety), and got some Gaba (for the restless legs). It has made it better but struggle with the energy level and emotional roller coaster. I smiled so big seeing you at day 12. Can't wait to be there. If you can do it like that, I know I can get there!
Congratulations on day 12, Driver!
Hey Driver,
Congrats on day 12. Glad to hear you are getting some sleep. I am still working on that but getting a few hours here and there so I can't complain.
Thanks for replying. I too, felt the same way as you. It is now day 12 for me without the pills and yes, I don't feel great, but I feel good! Sleep is what I lack and had to go back on Ambien to get some. I took half a tab to sleep. That's all. Hang in there, my friend. It gets better!
It takes about 5-7 days to feel just OK! You have come so far. Walk away from the script!
I took vicodin as prescribed 3 x a day for a ruptured disc in my back. I had no clue I was addicted. I decided not to refill the prescription because my back was feeling better and took the last one Monday morning. By Tuesday I thought I had the flu and I have been sick since and it finally occurred to me that it might be withdrawal so I googled it and found this. Today was the worst, no sleep, sick to my stomach, sweating, chills, headache, muscles twitching - overall feel like crap. Luckily I had an easy work week and told everyone I had the flu. So today is day 3 and I am hoping tomorrow is better because I will be honest, knowing this feeling is withdrawal, I am inclined to refill the script to get break from this horrible feeling. I could lose my job if this feeling continues much longer. Good luck.
I FINALLY got about 3 hours of sleep last night after being up about 47 hours. I can't sleep in the daytime but it will get better! The shakes are going away, the lack of energy is going away, I walk at least 2 miles a day (I force myself to do this, to get out of the house), the toilet trips are getting less and less. I took nothing for the toilet trips because I have to remember EVERYTHING about this awful trip I am on. I refuse to take any meds for sleep, pain, headache, RA...........I just won't do it! This is the worst trip of my life and I want my brain to remember every detail in case I falter! Take care my friend, you have been a big help!
hey bro your doing great day 3 is here only one mabey two more days and the awful stuff will be over and thats a good thing as for the sleep well......i'm on day19 and i'm still awake !!!! dam my luck !!!! lol
Once again, it is 1:15 am and very little sleep on day 3, but it's getting better every day. Thanks for your support Steve, means a lot to me!
Thank you Tom. I appreciate that advice very much! I will check into it.......problem is I live out in the country and the nearest town is 40 something miles away.
Driver, Congrats on wanting to come clean. Everyone has given you great advice here on what to expect and what helps with withdrawls. I pray for you to make it. If you detox there is a very high chance if you are truly addicted that you may relapse and find yourself right where you dont want to be. Yes withdrawl *****. PAWS ***** just as bad because it drags on for months. Just a suggestion. Get enrolled in an outpatient drug program. you will find yourself among people who may understand what you are going thru and be able to offer support and education. Once you detox thats just the start. If you are like me I tried over and over to stop and all I could do was think about getting more. This lasted for months. The cravings will get you if you dont have support and education on how to deal with them and triggers. Just a suggestion.
they come in waves but as the days pass so does the awful stuff !!! sleep is with most people as me.....the last thing to get right !!!! your doing great and your doing it hang in there bro it will get better
steve
I slept from 1:02 to 2am, than from 3 something til 4 and that was that. The rest of the time was spent up and walking around the house. Today, the shaking seems to be getting lighter but the brain wants to play head games with me. One minute I am feeling like I can lick the world and the next, I hurt again......and so on.......Thanks to all for all your encouragement!
I totally understand about the sleep. It was the last thing to come for me, too. I still don't sleep as much as I used to but that's ok. Maybe part of it is just getting older ;) Try to limit caffeine in the latter part of the day. Herbal teas are soothing. Hang in there. It will get better :)
Hey Driver - ooooh the lack of sleep, that was the worst - I do know how you feel, I'm also a lifelong insomniac who finally conquered her sleep issues. In the beginning I'd use benedryl or nyquil to help me get some sleep so I didn't go absolutely bonkers - some nights it helped others it did not. I also went off lifelong ambien use after I got off opiates so I had a double whammy.
Meditation and some other relaxation techniques REALLY helped me but it doesn't just naturally come - you have to learn to relax yourself. Check out my "Insomiac Maniac" sleep journal to see what I did and PM me any time - if I can make suggestions I will. I am sleeping naturally every single night now after having issues my entire life - what works for me may not work for you but it doesn't hurt to try.
Please hang in there in another 10 or so days you will be amazed at how much better you feel. You are doing great - keep moving ahead!
Thank you Minn. I can't tell you how much this forum has meant to me. I thought I was losing my mind, but "bring it on"! I did this to myself and if it doesn't kill me, it'll make me stronger!
Thanks Steve, you don't know how much your friendship and everyone Else's has helped me! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU !!
If the restless legs are keeping you up. Ask for something for that. It makes all the difference. My Dr. gave me carbidopa Levo/ER which is pretty benign in the doses you have to take. I take about 3-6 a day which is way lower than needed for the real purpose. No side effects so far! There are others that work, but this one has been around a LONG time. It is generic and pretty reasonable.
Yeah, my sleep is erratic. I can sleep for 4 hours and then up for 3. The only saving grace is I am retired and can take naps as needed. Hang in there!!
Hi driver and welcome :) I am a chronic pain patient too. The problem is our bodies get accustomed to the meds so it starts taking more to feel the same relief. I quit hydrocodone cold turkey back in November. I wasn't taking quite as many as some but I knew it was getting out of control. You should be over the worst soon. As others have said, take that Immodium and drink lots of Gatorade or something like that to replenish what comes out ;). Try to relax, watching funny shows and comedians helped me a lot and still does. Laughing really is a great medicine. Take the wd as it comes. Sometimes we (I know I do) tend to overthink things and then they end up not as bad as my mind made it out to be. Not saying wd isn't tough, but don't analyze or worry too much either.
Take care, best of luck, and keep posting!
Minn :)
well i see my primary dr this morning i think i'll ask him for something to help me sleep !!! i know if i had one pain pill i'd be asleep but........i got tooooo much time into this to do that !!!! nuf said !!!
AND GOOD MORNING TO YA DEAR hope it's a great day for ya
big hugs to ya........steve
6:30 am and still awake here. Sleep, sleep, you think they would have invented a pill for sleep by now. Oh wait...........they did, never mind.
hey driver....sorry to hear about the awfuls your going through right now the shakes and stomach and all that will get better soon !!! as you can see i'm still awake too........and i hate this part i just want to sleep !!!
hang in there bro... your friend steve
hey littlebit ya there? just want to let ya know...here it is day 18 at 3:12 in the morning and steve is still awake !!!dam my luck.....thought i had it whooped after sleeping the last two nites well got to sleep late but got to sleep,,, on my third cup of sleepy time tea...will see but it dont look like it
hugs to ya steve
steve