Withdrawal - Norco 10/325 (16 per day) day 2

[dhodge2000]

Well I can kind of see the light, but I still burst into tears at random times. Flu symptoms, sneezing, the runs, and I have been using benzos, soma, vitamins, gateraide, vitamin C and just trying to lay in bed and let this pass. I feel so helpless, so depressed, I honestly want this to end. I've thought, what am I going to do for pain now that I have chosen to give up the pills? I have a good chiro, get massage therapy, and try to go alternative. My mom doesn't want me to end up like my aunt, who has taken pain pills so many years, that she now has cirosis of the liver. I don't want to end up like that, and I have dreams of being free from this addiction. But right now I just feel like crying. My best friend is moving away soon, and I will be here all alone, no friends. It honestly has consumed me and I cry everytime I think about being here alone. I'm too old to make new friends, too busy with school. Just a bit down. i wish this depression would clear.

[momof4addict]

Good morning, I just have to say you are an inspiration to those of us needing to quit. I am a mother of 4, addict for over 2 years. Trying to cut back on,my own is hard. Although, I did go down from 12 10/325mg per day to 5-6. I wanna come clean completely, but am so afraid of withdrawals. Anything I can take to ease it? I am so afraid, but equally afraid of dying of liver or kidney complications. Oh wise one with experience, I will take any advise you can offer me. I truly appreciate your post. Sincerely.

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 4 days!!!  Nice to hear you are getting up and moving around now.  Keep it going~~~~~sara

[dhodge2000]

Especially thank you to you Sarah. You're truly an inspiration and I feel like I can finally have my life back. Thank you!

[vicki595]

Hey!!    You stay strong,okay??   You sound good and you've done all the right things so far. Keep reaching out!   Try some support groups, as well.  We have to work on our sobriety every single day!

Stay in touch!

[dhodge2000]

Day 4 and I finally feel like my spirit is coming back to life. I called alot of people in my weakest time to talk and laugh about old times. My advice, find old friends near or far, tell them what you are going through and just talk and laugh. It really made me feel better and I feel like I can do this. I am still a bit weak but I managed to go outside and cut down some branches that were over some wires and do a bit of yard work. Not much but I took a shower and now hear I am. I think I am going to go make myself busy for awhile and get out of the house. I feel like I took vacation from work, but this has not been a fun one at all lol. I think I am almost out of the woods. Still sneezing but I feel good. It's almost like you wake up, and your fighting spirit bounces back big time. Just kind of out of the blue. I did not think I was going to make it. I honestly wanted to die, for this to be over, kill myself. But those thoughts are now gone and now I am seeing such a bright, brilliant light ahead. It's truly beautiful. For all my brothers and sisters out there, keep fighting!!! Never give up! The goosebumps come, the bad thoughts come, but as everybody promises, they do pass. I will keep posting and let you know how I do. God bless you all, I love you all so much for being there for me at my weakest point.

[dominosarah]

Yep that is what i was talking about!!!  LOL

[this_big]

Lol..@ sara..I have a few of those stories. Sneezing and the runs...NOT a good combo!!

  It lasted about 3-4 weeks for me lightening up around 2 weeks. The sneezing anyway. The other part only a week or so. I also agree crying is cleansing...always felt better afterwards.

Hang in there and just go with it. It will pass before you know it. Doing great...Keep it up!!

[dominosarah]

Yes you are getting close to the light so keep moving forward.  Crying really is okay.  It is very cleansing.  I am happy you talked with your mom and feel better now.  You are lucky to be getting some sleep.  Keep us posted on how you are feeling.  You are doing great!!!

[dhodge2000]

Thank you very much. I still burst into tears, I am still an emotional wreck. Called my mom and talked and feel better. Just feel like years of emotions are ramming me at the same time and only people that have walked this walk understand, I'll post more as I keep going. I only woke up twice last night but fell back to sleep. I'm doing the best I can and while I don't feel 100%, I feel like I am getting close to the light.

[dominosarah]

The sneezing is normal and will last for awhile!!  I cant help but smile when i hear someone talk of this as once you get to feeling better we do end up in some sneezing "horror" stories!!  

I am glad you are feeling better today.  This will be a very emotional time for you so just let yourself feel them.  We numbed ourselves up for so long that we arent used to having any emotions.

Congrats on 3 days!!  Get up and move around as much as you can too.  That will help......sara

[dhodge2000]

Day 3 here and I am still weak and sneezing my a** off!!! I feel better, I think I have passed the peak and I am kind feeling a bit normal again. I still am ultra sensitive and I am a little overwhelmed with all the emotions washing over me. But, I DID NOT RELAPSE or cave!! I am so proud of myself! When is this sneezing going to stop geez!!

[IBKleen]

Have you spoken to your doctor about the depression? There is help for you. There is also ways to deal with the pain without the use of pain meds. If you want to know how the members here have dealt with chronic pain, please ask. Hope you stick around.