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Withdrawal and Depression
I finally got to post!! I have been experiencing severe withdrawal/depression the last few days, so much that I have found myself crying on a few occasions, I have been feeling like there is no way out of this awful life style, and if I get close to being clean, I get scared when I think of leading a sober life..... I can't handle it anymore, I lie to everyone, I hurt everyone and I waste all my godamn money on drugs, what the hell is the point? If it weren't for people in this forum, its a possibility I might not be here right now. How do I ease this pain, physically and mentally....... I would appreciate any and all posts. I hope I make it through this, I'm not feeling so well. GWH I will be here all day.
yes, my daughter is one of the very large reasons I am trying to really kick this. I also realize that when I'm on the vics, I'm a really great mom, but when I'm coming off them, I'm really irritable. BUt I know that before I took them I was generally a very happy person, so I know it's in there. Actually, what am I saying? I've seen that part of me LOTS since I've gotten off. Really, the ONLY complaint I have (and it is a big one) is this total lack of energy. I am taking paxil, so I did not think I should also take the L-Tyrosine (b/c paxil is an SSRI). I am taking vitamins (prenatal--they are the best in my opinion!). At night, I take vioxx, and a very very very small does of both topamax and zanaflex as preventive for migraines (which is what in part got me started in the first place). I do think the xanax could be contributing, but like I said, even when I don't take it for long periods, my energy level does not increase. I will say this, the past two mornings, when I have gotten up, for the first hour I have had more energy and been more like myself, but I QUICKLY dive and then it is hell. Is this a turning point? How does it work? Anyway I am rambling. I cannot tell you how much it has helped to have responses today. I was really losing it this morning. So frustrated. I feel more hope and I thank you ALL for that.
Dive
Thanks that sure did help. Like you said when I'am ready I'll
come back. i don't want to take up everyones time. If i can help
someone I will if not you won't hear from me anymore. I enjoyed
my time here and feel I met some wonderful people even though I
did'nt actually MEET anyone. See ya'll sometime soon.
Tom
Thanks that sure did help. Like you said when I'am ready I'll
come back. i don't want to take up everyones time. If i can help
someone I will if not you won't hear from me anymore. I enjoyed
my time here and feel I met some wonderful people even though I
did'nt actually MEET anyone. See ya'll sometime soon.
Tom
i am into day 4 compleatly cold turkey.
the tryrosine seem's to buffering out any depression,and i
able to still work witch is something that has never happened ,while kicking
i was taking 15 perc's a day for a year or 2 8 a day the the 2 year's previous.
i have never been able to taper. In my insane program 10 IS TO MANY AND A THOUSAND NEVER ENOUGH. I have never takin 1 of anything.
I guess it'S still all or nothing. well so far so good.
Been clean since friday it monday 5pm I have tried to kick plenty in the last 3 year's with no sucsess at all.i have 4 day's but i keep telling myself when i get two weeks i will be good to go.
Sleeping has been rough about 3 or 4 hours so you could say i feel pretty wired. I have been eating banna's for rls or leg cramps just in case . leg's are just getting bye.
my plan is to work so hard i tire myself out. Speaking of work
I was thinking i couuld substitute a perc addiction right into
a work addiction.
i have read everything on the post today, thank you to everyone
the tryrosine seem's to buffering out any depression,and i
able to still work witch is something that has never happened ,while kicking
i was taking 15 perc's a day for a year or 2 8 a day the the 2 year's previous.
i have never been able to taper. In my insane program 10 IS TO MANY AND A THOUSAND NEVER ENOUGH. I have never takin 1 of anything.
I guess it'S still all or nothing. well so far so good.
Been clean since friday it monday 5pm I have tried to kick plenty in the last 3 year's with no sucsess at all.i have 4 day's but i keep telling myself when i get two weeks i will be good to go.
Sleeping has been rough about 3 or 4 hours so you could say i feel pretty wired. I have been eating banna's for rls or leg cramps just in case . leg's are just getting bye.
my plan is to work so hard i tire myself out. Speaking of work
I was thinking i couuld substitute a perc addiction right into
a work addiction.
i have read everything on the post today, thank you to everyone
Hey there,
What GWH said is true. You should not have to live in pain. I too took the pills to feel high, originally I took the pills for a wisdom tooth procedure, then for a snowboarding injury, later just to get high. I healed quickley from the injuries, teeth were fine in 2 days or so, The shoulder took 2-3 weeks. The addiction has been for over 10 months. After I found the energy the pills provide, and the euphoria, I was hooked.
If you are in legitimate pain. Addiction isn't your problem, it's physical dependance, and tolerance. You may or may not be addicted with these two included, but they are in fact seperate issues. Most people in chronic pain ARE NOT addicts, but ARE physically dependandt on opiates. The difference comes when the pain goes awaym, if ever. People who are not addicted can withdraw from opiates (yes, it does suck I know) and later never pick up the pills, addicts always want more pills, no matter how many times they've been through withdrawal. Yes, it is a fine line, but don't fool yourself if you really need them. Talk to your doc, they can and will help. Not mine, cause I forged a few scripts, but that's my story.
Hang in there, and for god's sake don't put yourself in pain if you don't need to be. This is why we make the drugs we are addicted to, becase they do help severe pain, like nothing else can. When your pain subsides, if ever, then come back here and get help, when you're in hell. Untill then keep taking the meds. If I was in real pain, I would. But I'm not, I'm a junky, who ****** up his life for no other reason, than to get high....
Later....
What GWH said is true. You should not have to live in pain. I too took the pills to feel high, originally I took the pills for a wisdom tooth procedure, then for a snowboarding injury, later just to get high. I healed quickley from the injuries, teeth were fine in 2 days or so, The shoulder took 2-3 weeks. The addiction has been for over 10 months. After I found the energy the pills provide, and the euphoria, I was hooked.
If you are in legitimate pain. Addiction isn't your problem, it's physical dependance, and tolerance. You may or may not be addicted with these two included, but they are in fact seperate issues. Most people in chronic pain ARE NOT addicts, but ARE physically dependandt on opiates. The difference comes when the pain goes awaym, if ever. People who are not addicted can withdraw from opiates (yes, it does suck I know) and later never pick up the pills, addicts always want more pills, no matter how many times they've been through withdrawal. Yes, it is a fine line, but don't fool yourself if you really need them. Talk to your doc, they can and will help. Not mine, cause I forged a few scripts, but that's my story.
Hang in there, and for god's sake don't put yourself in pain if you don't need to be. This is why we make the drugs we are addicted to, becase they do help severe pain, like nothing else can. When your pain subsides, if ever, then come back here and get help, when you're in hell. Untill then keep taking the meds. If I was in real pain, I would. But I'm not, I'm a junky, who ****** up his life for no other reason, than to get high....
Later....
I adore my four year old. Although he just had a fit in the grocery store because I would buy him a candy bar!! The reason I haven't posted before today is because I thought people would laugh me out because I only take one vic per day but the truth is I really need that one pill! It helps me unwind at the end of a very full day. It gives me lots of energy when I would otherwise be spent. I get a lot done at night and then I fall fast asleep around midnight. I usually get a 30 pill prescription which lasts me a month and then I get another. I orginally got them for a knee injury but now I just take it because I like it. I have stopped before but mentally I always give in. I don't suffer any physical withdrawal symptons (just a little restless sleep the first night or so) but it is mentally hard to give up. Sorry I am rambling but I have never spoke of this to anyone before (not even my husband)! I really hope you remain clean because without even realizing it you have been an inspiration to me. Five weeks is quite an achievment. You should go out and buy yourself something special! Hang in there but if your energy doesn't come back maybe talk to your doctor about other reasons like thyroid problems.
gwh,
As soon as I hit the button I'am thinking you meant West of
Boston dummy. Thanks for the info.
Hink
As soon as I hit the button I'am thinking you meant West of
Boston dummy. Thanks for the info.
Hink
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