Hi last Sept had my first ever panic attack and was put on sertraline 50mg (zoloft) but didnt take until Oct and that was only because I was given 2mg diazepam (valium) take as and when needed up to 3 times a day. Then on NYE had sertraline upped to 100mg and told to carry on with diazepam as and when needed.
In this time frame I have done about 80 2mg tablets spread through out the last 14 weeks. The last week I have had flu/cold which has made my anxiety (I think) worse as in I am spaced out/lightheaded, fatigued, shortness of breath sonhave had the most diazepam I have had in one week, Mon - 1, Tues - 0 Weds - 2, Thurs - 1 Friday I had 3, yesterday I had 4. So in the last week I have had 11 x 2mg Diazepam. I woke up today and felt/still feel rubbish as in lightheaded/spaced out, breathing feels like I am gasping for deep breath when need one, I have no get up and go etc. I am still bunged up so breathing out my mouth but have a sore throat, lack of taste (normal cold/flu symptons) I haven't had a diazepam today (last 24 hours almost) because I am scared I am going to get or am addicted to them. I only just started feeling better this last weeek or so but now I feel like I did at the start of my anxious period.
I know some take 30mg/40mg/50mg diazepam a day so maybe it is the cold/flu making me feel like this but maybe it is my body telling me your hooked and give me a benzo
Any advice would be appreciated as its making me worse thinking about it all, last couple days I have had a diazepam and within an hour or so started to feel better but am scared to do this