am scared, suboxone detox

[Casper1984]

Ive been on suboxone for 2 years, 24mg's a day, 75 8mg's pills a month. I always ran out on day 18, due to my abusen them. For goin on 6-12 months, ive been taken 30-40 mg's a day. My insurance refills on day 20, so i would buy 2 8mg's with cash to hold me over. I have stopped cold turkey, and im not goin back to the doctor, my addictive mind set will just get the 75 pills again. I have not tapered down at all. My last dose was 3 days ago, 32 mg's. The withdrawal is something worse than heroin, pain pills, or any drug. I cant even walk ten feet with out blacking out, my skin is on fire, my bones burn, what do i do, and how much longer will this last? Am i in danger?

[IBKleen]

Hi Casper,

I need to say WOW! That was sure a high dose to jump off of and I really think you need to speak with a doctor. I was on Suboxone very short-term and most I know who came off of it tapered first.

I understand your anxiety but please be careful and get to the ER if anything serious begins to happen.

Please post and let us know how you are.

[vicki595]

We just can't know if you're in danger of death. You're young so that's in your favor. But,that's about it.  Massive amts. of klonopin is not cool. Don't call the urgent care...
they HATE that...just go.At least they'll check your B/P and run an EKG to check your heart. Tell them you don't want subs or pills!  Tell them what you did and that you're scared. They have to help you..

[Casper1984]

I promise i will if it gets worse, this hell im suffering through, i have a daughter, so trust me, if i fear im goin down medically, i will go to er. But ive done that, they gave me %mg hydros, which for someone who has the tolerance that would kill an average non user, it did nothing. and that was given, only cause they couldnt get ahold of my suboxone doctor. I know i should tell them, when they call my sub doctor, that im quitting, but the idea of getting subs makes me want to get blitzed. Im sorry, i know im asking for help and not really doing what im being told, its just ive been to the er twice for this, running out of subs early. I need a strong opiate, prescribed with less than 20 pills, alprozalom or something. But i give you my word, if i feel close to death, i will get taken to er. I know the feeling, ive over dosed and almost died, but was fully concious, the feeling is unmistakable. thank you, thank all of you

[TroubledDude]

I would take that advice from Vicki. Sub is a fully synthetic replacement therapy that has a long half life. I hate to tell you this but you have only just begun what is going to be a long hard, painful road. If you're abusing the Sub (I didn't even think this was possible) you might be a better candidate for Methadone treatment at a dispensing site. I know you're frustrated with yourself and just want this all to go away but you have to be patient. You didn't get here overnight and you're not getting out of it that fast either. Don't go it alone, you're jumping off from far too high of a dose. Seek medical help ASAP!

Take Care of yourself first!

[Casper1984]

blood pressure right now is, systolic-168    dia-106    pulse-105. thTS JUST HIGH, RIGHT? NOT DANGEROUS.

[vicki595]

I think you should be more concerned about your B/P and heart than getting a strong opiate. Really,what are 20 pills going to do for you?  In 8 hours you'll be back to square one. I don't mean to sound rude at all;just concerned for you.  But,I trust you'll do the right thing if neccessary...
V.