back on day 3

[leeisgettingclean]

So i guess absence being a clue some might already know that i did not make it last time. I made it till like day 10 i think and started back taking them pills. So here i am today back on day three, and its embrassing to adment that but its about me, and thats what i did so i have to be big enough to say it. So i know people atre going to ask me what it is that i am going to change this time, and i am a big beleiver of " if nothing changes than nothing changes" so this time i started counseling today, and alltough more time would have been nice, i am glad i went. I will be going 2 times a week, and i also plan to go to all the NA meetings i can. So anyhow its been rough and i am amazed and how quick you are right back to that place that you work so hard to get away from, and for me the sleep thing  ***** right now CAN NOT GET ANY, but i did work all weekend and yeah it was hard but i did make it, and now i am off untill thursday so i just hope to be better by then. thanks for reading

[Cissy373]

Glad your back was wondering about you.......and I relapsed too I am on day 5 of being clean this time. I went to my first NA meeting and going to try that.

Hang in there ok and good luck.

Cissy

[leeisgettingclean]

hanging in still..feeling much better today.

[troubleinohio]

well if its any consolation, most of us here have relapsed at least once...some of us are chronic relapsers. I know I have been one over the last 2 years. Its so very hard but you gotta stick with it. Wishing you the best. Keep posting!

[leeisgettingclean]

thank you so much, i was just reading your post and i am sorry about what is going on in your life, you know you have my support and prayers for you. I know school is a trigger, the stress, other people, studying, needing to stay up late, blah blah blah, i do understand believe me. HOwever, that being said, i know you can do it. you are a strong person and you just have to do it for yourself

[whitie]

Its common lee, others here have come back.  I always felt the wd's are the main reason people relapse.  I know it was always feeling like dog ****, that made me go back. I always was going to be more responsible the next time too........you know like,well I will just do them now and then, or maybe just the weekends. I could never do it. I always went right back to overindulgence........right back to square one.

you know the the drill.........you just gotta put up with it,should be alittle btter this time.  I can tell you that sooner or later, we either die or we get off em. everyone does. It would be nice if we could all just dissappear for 2 months,then come back...........

I can tell you that it will pay off in the end,  I woke up today and felt better than I have in 5 years! but its not going to be just two weeks to get back to normal...........

[Cassie415]

Hey Lee,
Glad to see you're back, that's whats most important that you're trying again. Your plan sounds great, and you always have my support. Congrats on 3 days, you seem to already be off to a good start and you know what you've got to do!