Im Totally addicted to tramadol

[lesbabe]

I have been taking Tramadol for about 6 years now im now on 10 50m tabs a day. I have to take 3 whan I get up and spread them out through the day. I have tried going cold turkey time and time again and just cant handle it, the last time was when i got pregnant and was very worried about my baby. I was extreemly ill shaking like i was dieing of the flu. Irritable legs or "nagis" as i call them. I couldnt handle it I had to lie to my husband he didnt know i was taking them. I plucked up the courage to go to the doc and backed out of telling him i was addicted and just said i was ill!! He did blood test and found some sort of abnormality with my liver, I was refered to hospital as i was pregant and admitted i was taking tramadol and the specialist brushed it off saying that wouldnt be the problem with my liver and wouldnt be making me feel like this. I left feeling like i was ok to take tramadol. I carried on even through pregnancy as i just couldnt get off, i cut down and thankfully my baby was born healthy but i can never forgive my self for taking these awfull pills while having him inside me. This was 2 years ago now and im still taking them. I have never been prescribed them and order them off internet sites that cost me a fortune and i dont have the money now and am left at this moment with none! Im only on my first day and im going through hell i cant even believe i have wrote for this long as i cant even get dressed! Im terrified of what tonight will bring i feel like a heroine addict and i promise you now although not as severe that is what the dt is like! Im desperate for something to help i just dont know what i know the best thing is to ween off them but i dont have any to do that. I have two young children and cold turkey is going to be hell for me and for them. I am going to see my doctor to get weened off them but have to wait two days for an app!!  Anyone know of anything in the home that could help??? I just dont know what to do!!

[Dazz521]

Hi There. I've been exactly where you are right now. It's imperative that you get to the Doctor and let them know what's going on. A Taper schedule will get you off these. I kicked these last year after being on them for 8 years taking 12 a day at the worst point. My Doctor had me cut down by 25 mg a week, it was a slow taper but it worked. Stay strong and focused on your commitment to get of these. I went to NA meetings while I tapered off them and that relly helped me as well. YOU CAN AND WILL DO THIS.

xo Dazz

[tryintobeatoxyaddiction]

I dont want to scare you but cold turkey off Tram is dangerous - its possible to have seizures.   I recommend you get in to see the doctor immed. or if that is impossible go to emerg.  however your doctors office would fit you in probably today if you tell them straight up what is going on.  I feel your pain - there is no easy way to do this but there are some things to help.  I strongly recommend the doctor as he can provide some relief for physical pain and anxiety.  You must be strong for you and your kids.  I have de-toxed and I feel great these days.  Dont get stuck back on the Tram train - nows the time to get off if you have already started the withdrawl process.

[lesbabe]

Well I survived Last nite but it was hell so bad that I had to ring my niece who is 21 to help me. She lives with my sister who i started taking tramadol with, she is now off them but my niece managed to find 3 tabs in coat pockets!! She came to my house with them and although i really just wanted to take all of them so i could feel normal and get some sleep I took one as well as 2 remadine they have codine in them and aparently act a little like tramadol and are more redily available. Im concidering subsituting tramadol with them and weening off the codine instead?? I really cant do this cold turkey I am going to have to see my doctor today and ween of them slowly so it has less effect on my children. Like Suzipen wrote I am taking it out on my children shouting at them for simple things like spilling a drink!!! I dont mean to but I dont even have the energy to wipe it up and I just get annoyed. My Husband is in another country with the Army at the moment so I dont have his help and he cant see how ill im getting its all just too hard. I came on here last night after reading about people who have been through this and are still breathing and good and really thought I could do it but without some help I know I just can't maybe if I had someone to mind the children for a wk and I could judt lay in bed it might be possible but at the moment i dont have anyone. I am also looking to get back into work and really how am i going to do that feeling like I do???
I really thank everyone for all your help and taking time to write replys they have made me determind to get off tramadol and i have every confidence with my doctors help I will I just hope I can stay off them!
Thank You Everyone x

[suzipen]

Also read EmilyPost journals!!!

[suzipen]

This will be tough, but you will get thru it. I was taking exactly the same amount, and although I weened down, I understand EXACTLY how you feel. (I am now on day 8 of no tram.)  I know its hard with small children, and I know the guilt you will feel (just read my journal and posts), but it will pass. This site helped me so much, so please stay connected. There are some amazing people on here who have such a way with words, and it will help you just reading it. 2 things I did- drank lots of water, took excederine or tylenol regularly, and , cheesy as it sounds- did a lot of deep breathing. You just have to remember that you will get better. PLEASE go and read others journals, it really helped me. I wish a had some magic words for you but I dont. Just know that 8 days ago I was in your shoes............and I'm still alive, and getting better every day.
Tramadol is a hard one because not only are you taking the pain med away, but an antidepressant as well. That was the hardest part for me........the mental part. BUT, like I said, I am still here!!!!!!!!
I received some good advice about my kids.I felt so guilty because they had to go thru it with me. I was yelling a lot, and I really had to step outside of my situation and realize they did nothing to deserve it. I was the one who took the pills, not them.
Also, just think how much better it will be for them when you are drug free.
My prayers are with you..........suzipen

[TrayCee]

HOT HOT HOT baths ! As many and as often as you need will help with the RLS.  That was the worst part for me.

Good Luck!

[Mikeinthesouth]

Tramadol is a whole other animal in m opinion.... Very bad and works on the mind.............

[cattalina]

Since Tramadol is an opiate what you're going thru is very similar to a heroin detox. You were taking a pretty hefty amount of pills per day so this will not be easy for you. Down at the right hand corner of the page there's something called the Thomas Recipe and Amino Acid Protocol. Many people swear by them. In actuality tho - nothing will 100% take away that sickness. Drink lots of water, try to keep moving around even if it ***** and get some vits/aminos into your system. Putting on the happy face for family tonight will be difficult and it's up to you as to whether or not you feel you can handle it. For alot of people claiming the flu and taking a few days off is the best way to go. Opiate wds and the flu have identical symptoms so it's not a stretch for people to believe. I would strongly reccommend telling your husband as it's very difficult to do this alone - but that is something you have to decide on your own. Try to keep in mind that as bad as it might be right now - it always gets worse if we continue to use those drugs. And being sick and going thru wds is inevitable for all of us no matter what we do. I'm sorry that I don't have anything better to add than that!! Check into the Health Pages on this site and stay strong... You can get thru this and live a better life!! Try and enjoy the holiday with your family. Continue posting here - there's normally more people around and everyone is super supportive. :)