Lost

[slapperman]

I quit the oxy's CT for 6 days and then like I always do I started with 1 and back in the grind. Then I did research on the suboxone and after 2 days of a failed connection gave in and went to the Doctor who gave me a prescription and thing seemed better. Then I became depressed and miserable because when i was doing oxy's I was out and about having a great time and now I just sit in my room rotting away. I went CT on the sub for 9 days caved in and went back to the Doctor now I take as little as possible just to make it through the day. I don't know why but I no longer go out, talk to my friends, go to work, or want to do anything. I feel as if I just replaced the oxy with the sub and now what?

I remember a time when I enjoyed waking up and doing things. When will I feel normal ? Why is it so hard for me to give in and go to NA or a support group ? What was your motivation and how did you overcome your addiction. I try to keep busy but that only last for so long. I have become very anti-social and this makes it very hard for me to go anywhere or see anybody (This is the exact opposite of my behavior prior to stopping)

Has anyone else felt or feels this way, what did you do to overcome this problem and get back to living a normal life ?

[snowflake620]

sounds a like a bit of depression is taking over here and I would strongly suggest trying 5htp from the amino acid protocol for me it has worked better than any prescription antidepressant,also you need to look into some aftercare really meetings may not be for you but have you ever tried one? or even go to the social pages on here for starters,but please don't give up because life is so worth it to keep trying
snowflake

[AmandaF1982]

I know the feeling I used to feel great and have so much energy on oxy's and vicoden now I am also anti-social and dont want to do anything anymore but I am on methodone I started it to keep from withdraws off oxy but its a downer and makes me sleep and not want to leave the house. B4 I hated staying home and watching tv I had so much energy and felt like super woman. So yes I know exactly how you feel I actually have wanted to get off methadone and try suboxone to see if it helped me I have even thought about getting back on oxy cause it seems like I was happier except for when I ran out and going through withdraws but I feel the same like just replaced one drug for another.

[noopy23]

I feel ya I am on my 6th day of no vicodin, For 4 years straight everyday got up to about 13-15 a day. I feel blah and bored, but i keep trying to remember the big picture waking up that one day and saying hey i feel good! this sounds funny but when i get in a funk I crank the music it seems to help! lol. Did u try following the the thomas recipe and the amino acid protocol? They helped me alot. Good luck and keep coming back here the people are amazing and helpful we all can relate to eachother in some way. Best wishes in fighting for your life back! Kim :)

[gizzy32]

For me i think my choice was made for me to quit. I had no options left and overdosing was the best thing that could have happened to me. Laying on the ground in convulsions, bleeding and agony made that light switch go off. It dosen't have to reach that point though. I knew i had a serious problem for 5 years but it wasn't till i got help  was i able to learn the tools to stay clean. I think it's hard for you to give in to N/A because quitting is one of the most scariest things, it was for me. Your giving up a way of life, but by going to a meeting you finally are surrendering. Once you surrender to your addiction things change. At the end of my use i was so beat up and sickly i stopped going out, i stopped doing what i loved and i did coke all day, not a life.

Getting help is what you need, it's what we all have needed and posting here is a heck of a start. Are you willing to do something to beat this? It's a battle man, but if we can do it so can you. I gave up on life, i wanted to die, lost all hope, but today i am clean and happy and proud of myself. You will get there, you just need to learn the tools to stay clean. I wish you the best.