i just found myself behind my closed bedroom door having one of the worst crying fits. i cant expect people who are sober to understand that every second i feel like transfering my soul to another body while this one heals. I cant expect to be monitored 24 hours a day while going through these jacked up mood swings. i hate myself for this. this is why im so angry...because i allowed myself to get to a point where im addicted to something so lifeless.
I just wanna make it through the night peacefully. thinking of going to get melatonin from wal mart, but i dont wanna leave this room, let alone dry these tears do something with my hair so i dont look like a crazy lady and go in public wheni just wanna sleep!