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day 17 & really distressed
I feel worse than ever today. I barely have the energy to get out of bed.I have no support system whatsoever. I tried aa/na meetings but I am hearing impaired and could not hear anything, just escalates my anxiety. Online groups someone suggested, but really would like a human being and a warm hug. Regardless, the shape I'm in, I could not even make it to a meeting. I'm in serious trouble here. Yes, I know it takes time for the body/brain to heal but to be deteriorating feels like something is not right. I am eating, taking vitamins doing all the things that have been advised on this site. I was taking in some walks but am now too weak and depressed. I pray & pray for help, strength, guidance.
synchronicity...as it happens a friend of mine who lives on the east coast recommended Rhodiola rosea and I purchased a bottle...this is awhile ago and for some reason I never opened and tried it. Just last night I pulled it out and intended to try it today. Reading your post about it was perfect. The brand I have is "Ameriden Rosavin Plus", Siberian Rhodiola rosea and each cap contains 200 mcg electrolytes. Already took one. Thank you for your in depth research on it....has given me a big dollop of hope.
My physical ailment was cured by a dr. who practices alternative medicine. It was a serious ailment that rendered me immobile so was trapped in a wheeIchair for 4 yrs. I then was doing just what you recommended; volunteering at a food bank and was getting involved in other endeavors. I also have PTSD which became extremely intense after I was physically healed. Took a leave of absence in Nov/2012 to get off of the morphine & norco I was being given for the physical ailment. Throw PAWS into the mix and I'm believe this why I have been struggling so much. The PTSD I have is complex due to 10 yrs. of repeated and prolonged trauma. I have done a ton of research on it and study after study shows that it alters brain function significantly. One thing that really caught my attention was that the Mu receptors are also impacted and as well normal manufacturing of natural opiates is greatly diminished thus causing severe depression which I have had all my life. TMI, I know but felt I needed to explain my history. I am acutely aware that isolation is extremely unhealthy as is lack of exercise, especially during/after w/d. Going to force myself to for a walk today, feel super weak but must do this. Thank you Barb, you are very perceptive.
I'm glad you brought that up. I couldn't find anything on it causing interactions with drugs that generally are ruled out for those taking MAOIs, but it's probably best to err on the side of caution.
Here's what I found on Drugs.com.
http://www.drugs.com/npp/rhodiola.html
Here's what I found on Drugs.com.
http://www.drugs.com/npp/rhodiola.html
I'm sorry to hear you are still feeling poorly. It does take time. Even though you hate to hear that.
I worry about your being alone a lot it seems. Are you still plagued with Health issues that you mentioned? If so, can you get out some at least? In a week or so, when you feel better from the wds.
I was thinking, maybe based on your interests, joining a book club, or the local Rotary club, donating your time at a food bank, at the library teaching reading to adults with reading and writing issues, the hospital, etc.
Something that would allow you to meet people, while doing something good for the community. That in itself would lift your spirits.
There are lots of things even us hearing impaired can do.
Please keep in touch!
Zoey, I have been meaning to try that. I'm curious if, since it says it works sort of like a MAOI, have you found any drug interactions? I just know a lot of medicines say don't take while using an MAOI.
But I'm loving you said it works quickly, and doesn't take weeks. Thanks :)
I worry about your being alone a lot it seems. Are you still plagued with Health issues that you mentioned? If so, can you get out some at least? In a week or so, when you feel better from the wds.
I was thinking, maybe based on your interests, joining a book club, or the local Rotary club, donating your time at a food bank, at the library teaching reading to adults with reading and writing issues, the hospital, etc.
Something that would allow you to meet people, while doing something good for the community. That in itself would lift your spirits.
There are lots of things even us hearing impaired can do.
Please keep in touch!
Zoey, I have been meaning to try that. I'm curious if, since it says it works sort of like a MAOI, have you found any drug interactions? I just know a lot of medicines say don't take while using an MAOI.
But I'm loving you said it works quickly, and doesn't take weeks. Thanks :)
...and you feel the effects of Rhodiola right away. Not after weeks, like other anti-depressants.
Sorry today is no better.
I know there's no Panacea and the brain needs time to heal. But in the mean time, have you tried Rhodiola rosea? From LiveStrong:
"Rhodiola rosea may be used as a natural treatment for depression. Rhodiola has been shown to increase serotonin in addition to other brain neurotransmitters that contribute to a healthy mental state. A research study in the March 2009 edition of "The Journal of Ethnopharmacology" discovered that Rhodiola rosea has potent anti-depressant effects. Through these effects, it has been shown to improve mood and nervous system function. The study discovered that the herb works similarly to anti-depressant drugs that fall into the category of "MAOI" (monoamine oxidase inhibitors). MAOI drugs are prescribed less commonly these days compared to other antidepressants, but they are still used on occasion for atypical depression, agoraphobia, social anxiety, smoking cessation and migraine prophylaxis.
A study published in the October 2000 issue of "Phytomedicine" researched the effect of rhodiola on 56 young, healthy doctors experiencing fatigue during night duty. The authors measured rhodiola effects by calculating total mental performance, and found significant improvement in the treatment group compared to the placebo group. The 2001 "Alternative Medicine Review" article notes that rhodiola shows usefulness for improving problems involved with intense physical or intellectual stress, including declines in work performance, insomnia, lack of appetite, irritability, hypertension, headaches and fatigue."
I know there's no Panacea and the brain needs time to heal. But in the mean time, have you tried Rhodiola rosea? From LiveStrong:
"Rhodiola rosea may be used as a natural treatment for depression. Rhodiola has been shown to increase serotonin in addition to other brain neurotransmitters that contribute to a healthy mental state. A research study in the March 2009 edition of "The Journal of Ethnopharmacology" discovered that Rhodiola rosea has potent anti-depressant effects. Through these effects, it has been shown to improve mood and nervous system function. The study discovered that the herb works similarly to anti-depressant drugs that fall into the category of "MAOI" (monoamine oxidase inhibitors). MAOI drugs are prescribed less commonly these days compared to other antidepressants, but they are still used on occasion for atypical depression, agoraphobia, social anxiety, smoking cessation and migraine prophylaxis.
A study published in the October 2000 issue of "Phytomedicine" researched the effect of rhodiola on 56 young, healthy doctors experiencing fatigue during night duty. The authors measured rhodiola effects by calculating total mental performance, and found significant improvement in the treatment group compared to the placebo group. The 2001 "Alternative Medicine Review" article notes that rhodiola shows usefulness for improving problems involved with intense physical or intellectual stress, including declines in work performance, insomnia, lack of appetite, irritability, hypertension, headaches and fatigue."
Hope you feel better..no that this is temporary. It will pass.. If its col out play some online games.. Bejeweled. Was a winner for me
Thanks for asking; sorry to report I'm no better today. Whilst lying in bed, for the better part of the day, was trying to come up with a game plan but failed. I've never in my life felt so alone, helpless and hopeless. I think of all you who posted that this gets better and I cling to this. I am utterly drained of all energy, depressed (a/d's don't help) anxious, and in a state of inertia. Day 18 and just praying this lifts soon.
Thank you for your support, it brings me comfort during this difficult time. Barbrtr, yes I have gone to several different meeting venues, but when I feel a little better, I will try some in another town close by; thank you for your insight, hard for someone who does not know the challenges. I don't have any immediate family close by, they are in Canada or Ireland; my spouse passed away some time ago, then I became ill and the outcome is that I've found myself to be rather isolated. I sound like I'm ancient but I'm in my 50's. Cheers to you all and best wishes.
Oh Hun! I totally understand the hearing loss, and how isolated and anxious it can make you feel.
I cannot hear at Church, or anyplace with a big room. I can't watch most tv shows because I can't hear, and the close captioning is too fast to read. I can hear at the movies, since our theater has headphones for hearing impaired. I get the how lonely it can make you feel.. Even at a small table in a restaraunt, I cannot hear my companions, because of background noise.
So, I haven't made it to a meeting yet due to being non opiate related sick, but I looked them up, and when I do go, I'm selecting the one in a place I know is tiny, with normal ceiling heights. Do you live in a town with several meeting choices? Perhaps you can find a different one, that isn't as highly attended, maybe due to a weird time or something, and try there.
Don't give up. The frustration of driving to a meeting, then finding you can't hear a word, have no idea why everyone just laughed, or cried, is enough to depress you, to where you have physical symptoms again.
Hugs and prayers..
I cannot hear at Church, or anyplace with a big room. I can't watch most tv shows because I can't hear, and the close captioning is too fast to read. I can hear at the movies, since our theater has headphones for hearing impaired. I get the how lonely it can make you feel.. Even at a small table in a restaraunt, I cannot hear my companions, because of background noise.
So, I haven't made it to a meeting yet due to being non opiate related sick, but I looked them up, and when I do go, I'm selecting the one in a place I know is tiny, with normal ceiling heights. Do you live in a town with several meeting choices? Perhaps you can find a different one, that isn't as highly attended, maybe due to a weird time or something, and try there.
Don't give up. The frustration of driving to a meeting, then finding you can't hear a word, have no idea why everyone just laughed, or cried, is enough to depress you, to where you have physical symptoms again.
Hugs and prayers..
so sorry you are feeling so bad! reach out to family or friends like clean suggested above....if possible....and you very well could be coming down with something....but i went thru the same things.....good days and then felt horrible the next...it's a roller coaster, so we just have to ride it out the best we can! keep posting for support! let us know how you are doing!
Sorry to hear you are feeling so low today.....until you feel physically well enough to leave your home and find some "skin on" hugs and support, maybe some phone calls reaching out and asking for help right now today, would help. I just "binged" (or googled) na or aa for hearing impaired.
There are resources and several sites to read about where others post their similar situations; you may be able to relate or get some suggestions that way..
A friend, family member, or even a phone call to an NA or AA group and sharing what you are currently feeling and dealing with may yield some really great and surprising results. Someone may even be willing to just come sit and talk w/you. Recovering people are AMAZING and full of compassion......hope you'll hang on......no two days are the same~
There are resources and several sites to read about where others post their similar situations; you may be able to relate or get some suggestions that way..
A friend, family member, or even a phone call to an NA or AA group and sharing what you are currently feeling and dealing with may yield some really great and surprising results. Someone may even be willing to just come sit and talk w/you. Recovering people are AMAZING and full of compassion......hope you'll hang on......no two days are the same~
I am so sorry your feeling this way:(. I would give a big hug if I could. Hang in there!!!. Do you take anything for depression. Im on day 12 so you have me beat. We can do this. You are not alone in this. There are others right there with you. I know Ive had my days. Do something to keep yourself occupied. I know this is hard. Ive had these days and afraid of more to come but its all worth it in the end.
Sorry you are feeling so bad.I felt all kinds of horrible on day 17.You could be getting sick too because there is a ton of low grade stuff going around.I have been ill for about a week now.Not the flu but annoying and draining.
I wish they would talk louder in those meetings.It seems like the ones that talk the longest talk the softest and get down to an almost whisper at times.
Anyway hang in there please.It will get better and it could be right around the corner.The alternative will never be any good anyway
I wish they would talk louder in those meetings.It seems like the ones that talk the longest talk the softest and get down to an almost whisper at times.
Anyway hang in there please.It will get better and it could be right around the corner.The alternative will never be any good anyway
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