do i have a problem?

[hthekidd]

It took a trip to the er for me to finally ask myself....do i have a problem? This Thursday night started with a drink, which led to another and another and so forth. A few drinks in led to some prescription drugs then other stuff. I feel it is inapporopriate to post exactly what i had taken but just to give you and idea of how out of hand it got i lead myself to say that my body had endured about 5 different kinds of drugs. After a 10 hour binge of partying i had adderall, xanax, ecstacy, cocaine, prozac, alcohol, and marijuana in my system. I felt fine till this after noon, when i got up to use the restroom everything went black. my brain began to tingle my hands felt like they were floating and my ear were ringing. i thought i was going to die. it was the worst feeling ive ever experienced. i have anxiety so i know how it feels to panic but this was far worse than that. I felt extremely out of it and even worse than the night i had taken all those drugs. i had a friend rush me to the hospital where i waited for 3 hours. by then i just wanted to go home and rest, which i did. It took this experience for me to finally step back and ask myself if i do have a problem. its not that every time i drink i go this over board but it can never be just ONE drink or even two for that matter. I feel that when im out "partying" i need to get as drunk as possible. why am i doing this? am i trying to fill a void?

[Teetime4u]

With what you have written here. You have a major problem and you need to seek help!! Just with what you wrote you know it is a problem!! Good luck and God Bless!

[CATUF]

sorry, i couldn't resist.  i used to do stuff like that on thursday nights, and i know i had a problem.  you sound as out of control as i was.

i quit drinking for about 9 years and then got addicted to opiates after an accident.  it seemed like they were an ok substitute for alcohol, as i didn't get wild, anti-social and out of control.  

but eventually i realized they were a problem too. at first i thought the problem was simply the cost . . . i thought i needed to quit because i was spending too much money.  i assumed that when i really decided to quit that i'd just quit, because that's what i had done years before with alcohol.

i had no idea that i had a disease (addiction) and that it had been quietly growing stronger all those years and then really took off when i started pouring opiates into my brain.  i started really trying to quit after 3 years of using.  I spent 4 years quitting, and relapsing, quitting and relapsing, with the use ramping up a bit with each failed attempt.

i wasn't able to quit until the 5th year of trying, in which i went to rehab twice.  the first time for 30 days and the second for four months.

i wouldn't worry about why you do this right now.  if your house is on fire you don't spend time trying to figure out how the fire got started -- you put it out and that's all you do until you're positive that it's 100% out.

try AA on for size.  find several meetings in your area and go to at least one meeting a day for 90 days.  it will be a worth while investment even if you decide that you don't wan to continue.



CATUF
1985

[CATUF]

no, you're fine.  that's what every body does on thursday night.