Anxiety

[Beany2215]

As I'm sitting at a recital for my 6 year old I can't help but remember the last 3 times I was here... I was on some type of opiate... It feels weird being around all these people with nothing on board.. Im with my wife's family and my mind is racing... I can't help but think how much easier it would be if I took  a pill... Not that I'm going to but after 4 months it's still just as hard as it was on day 1... I just keep reminding myself how much better my life is now compared to 4 months ago ...after this I'm gonna hit a NA meeting and get my mind right....

[Free2agoodhome]

Whoa !   That thinking cant be  good. Great idea about NA,,hell just get the book..or some cool literature for a start......Something about being in a meeting and seeing someone in the throws of addiction.....reminds you of you and your heart breaks for them,.,,cuz u know how  crappy they feel....

hang on to your days with both hands,,,,,,,,,,

Free~

[gammieof1]

Just breathe and live in this moment look at how beautiful your daughter is you wife is and just let love and positivity flood over you. Praying for peace to flood over you :)
Shan

[selfinduced]

Left speechless, except with much gratitude for your openness and care enough to share. Very sobering thoughts.....and true

[redsoxlove]

It's simple- drugs will kill you... In every aspect of your life- physically, emotionally& spiritually. Family won't stick around long for it so it ends up being one lonely slow ride to a mind boggling hell.
Like I said- LOVE your wife and daughter & stay clean.. before its too late!
I didn't listen and lost my world.

[selfinduced]

WOW, Very powerful message........ Sobering as well....Thank you.

[redsoxlove]

It's the only life you are given. Chose carefully the decisions you make - I'm sure your wife & daughter love you very much. I lost my wife & daughter to my addiction- its not a joke. Life is short - stay clean and love them- if not your future is a lonely one- no recitals, no family vacations, no cookouts, no birthdays, no holidays. Good luck

[dominosarah]

We are and always will be a work in progress~~

[Beany2215]

Thx everyone I'm calmed down now but.this was a good reminder of how far I have to go

[kyle505]

You are exactly like me. Dinners, vacations, family gatherings, etc., all centered around my pills - how many, when, will I have enough. I'm about 5 months clean, and just finished going through a big, yearly family gathering over the Memorial Day weekend. 5 months clean - ready for it, right? Nope. I was up and down; anxious, ok, anxious, ok, but remembering how easy it was on pills.
These are the things that we have to experience without meds, enjoy, and file the information away for the next time.

[dominosarah]

Enjoy your daughters recital and be glad you will remember this one as they grow up so fast.  You dont need any pills to get you thru this, take a look at your beautiful child and that will give you the push you need to get thru.  Glad to hear you are hitting up a meeting, that will just be the icing on the cake~~

Congrats on your clean time!

[Lilasme]

Take some deep breaths...try to relax..it will pass..
you've come too far to turn back now...I know what you mean...learning to live life sober is an out of body experience sometimes...but we just have to take it one step at a time...it will get easier...hang in there...you can do this!