What is it about drugs..

[sadinmichigan]

What is it about drugs that make people become something other than they normally would be? Why do they make you lie,cheat and steal.(I guess I'm just talking out loud) I have been struggling with severe lower back/hip pain for 3 weeks now..in that time I have had to go to the E.R. just to get relief to be able to walk..The Dr. sent me home with a rx for 10 lousy vicodin..and the weakest strength of them..I had refrained from getting them filled because A.) I am an addcit and don't want to get hooked back on them and B).I knew I would have to take all 10 in a day just to get relief..if any(.since my tolerance is quite high).well, I got them filled yesterday because since I have been sick with food poisoning ,my back is hurting all the more from the less than pleasant things that happen when you have food poisoning..This morning I woke up to "someone" searching in my purse that was inside my nightstand. I had a whopping 6 left and he took 2..but when confronted about what it was he was doing he said "looking for a lighter"..WHATEVER...I didn't even bother looking until I woke up because I am so mad..no actually I am more than mad...Why do drugs make people do this....I have done my fair share of obtaining rx's under false pretenses..never have I stole them from others..I guess because the situation to do so has never been presented and I never needed to..I am really pi$$ed !! Just needing to vent..Oh wait!!! this is rich...now he's calling to apologize for waking me up..said he bumped the table..excuse me while I go PUKE!!

[NeedHelp426]

Well, I don't know why others do it, but I can tell you why I pop pills. Social help, a clean house, of course to diminish back/knee pain. Within half an hour after I take vicodin I feel so damn happy and motivated! However when i'm down to my last dose I start becoming frightened and uneasy, constantly wondering how I am getting more. I never lied or cheated with them though. Drs are giving me a difficult time getting to them now. Yesterday I took my girls fishing after I took my dose, see what I mean? When I don't pop, I pretty much don't feel like doing anything and I get violently sick. I say, the government should YES try to prevent this from happening with new people, but for us? They should just give us life rx's since we are already addicted. It's like an antidepressant for me. Plus it's how I accomplish most of my personal writing time.

[sadinmichigan]

if you come up with a good one let me know..i'm sick to death of it too..g'night girl
love ya..

[bobby139]

I know exactly how u feel...hubby and i have been at eachother all night...the doc told him he is drinking himself to death, but he dont care and has been being a ***. I to think i would be better off with out him but need time for a plan...we need to just ignore their mean ways and make our plans and they will be the one's that will  think what the hell happend!!  Hang in there we will make it!!
love ya
bobby

[malenurse57]

I wish you all the best. Just know that allmen are not like that there are a few good men out there somewhere. I know in 29 yrs I have not been a knight in shining armor I have done some really low things. Most of which I am not in anyway proud of. I can only pray that some day you will find the one that you really deserve. God Bless.

P.S. Why my wife has'nt killed or divorced me is anybodies guess.

[sadinmichigan]

I am sticking to this post because the other one is just tooooo damn weird..LOL

anyway..yes the husband is a jerk.it's not as easy to end a marraige though when you have nothing and nowhere to go..I thought I would try and stick it out at least for awhile longer to try and get a plan of some kind..he isn't going to change..i have to deal with the whole w/d thing..except it's not me going through it...i have had the misfortune of being an addict and now living with one..weird..i just don't know exactly how long he has been one..at least a couple of years...

[sadinmichigan]

I am really having a hard time with this..because i am the person I am i actually feel sorry for the one who steals my ****..because he is w/ds and i know it..I of course have been there and DONE that!!..I gave him the stupid 4 that he didn't steal just so he will feel a little better for a couple hours so then all of our lives here can be hell for the next....how ever many days it takes for him to fill his **** or buy some and not pay our bills..I'm trying to be happy Crispy!!  The little Engine that Could..is gonna kick some a$$

[sadinmichigan]

hey BUDDY>>>>where are yoooooouuuuuu????

[sadinmichigan]

thanks..I know that i need to make a decision about ****..I actually have made a decision..i just have to do it now..I am so tired , I really really am..but..I want to be happy and this isn't workin' for me..

Bobby-Love ya to girl!..

[bobby139]

hay hon, i havnt talked to you in quite sometime, not on much latley but still read posts from time to time to see how my friends are...and i see your not to fine..sorry about your back, that sucks big time!! You know my feelings about husbands so i wont waste my time typing that out lol.......you know as long as he is an addict he is going to lie his *** off and will do that until he makes the desicision that he is an addict until then your the one w the problem not him, (in his own mind that is) you either have to throw his *** out or try and ignore his ****,..what matters here is YOU ...you have to take care of you. if u need to vent more you know how to get ahold of me. Just wanted to jump on and send my love and tell ya to hang in there girl!!
love ya
bobby

[LONESOME]

Girl I'm sorry you are going through this but don't be mad just do something about it leave him or tell him to leave you, it seems to me like you want to change your life but he dosen't he still using and that is not fair for you and your kids.

Sorry for my two cents but I have seeing your posts and he dosen't deserve you or your kids.

Anyways I shouldn't say that but you really deserve to change your life around you derserve it.

TOMORROW WILL BE MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!!

[sadinmichigan]

ok..Im going to babble too..lol..it's my sons b-day and I want to have a good day...fake it you say??? i have faked many things..lol...i'll leave that open...xo Lisa

[joann1975]

apparently there isn't a housecleaning pill..... can you believe it? the nerve of the drug companies!!!

it does help to babble or yell on the computer.... i talk myself through cravings on here alot! (so that's where my babbling posts come from alot) :)

[sadinmichigan]

it amazes me too..but..they are all around me..and at some point you just have to be stubborn..(which I am very much so)lol I also knew at anytime I could just go get my own..but I tell ya..this **** just makes me hate them all the more...I am still just seriously ticked...all that for 2 lousy 500..vicodin..and thinking I won't notice 2 missing when I had only 6...ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

[desperate1111]

he takes your pills and you need them. see how selfish addiction can be. i admire your determination. it actually amazes me you can live with someone that has pills and stay strong.

[malenurse57]

Maybe verbally admits it but what about mentaly to himself ? Girl drive him nuts just find something to laugh about and let people wonder if you are really nuts, it does wonders for you.

[sadinmichigan]

hey my friend...I wanted to say CONGRATS to you!!!! Whoooooooooo Hooooooooo
but I don't know of ANY pill that makes me want to clean the house..LOL

[sadinmichigan]

I have even had to hide the one frickin' rx I did get and that was soma!! He even stole them..and i finally just threw the whole damn bottle at him and said HERE...

as for the spine guy..I have to wait for a different name..because the one my dr. gave me doesn't participate in my insurance..I am going to get the report but the office is 45 minutes away..I just wanted to know what ..if any difference there is since the last MRI..He's supposed to call me back today..and then i'll just make him read it..lol  when the nurse called she said the same thing that i already knew..L-4,5  and S1..but didn't elaborate..I just need to take a deeeeeep breath before i talk to anyone..lol

yelling on the computer is somehow helping!!

[joann1975]

Ok, I kinda figured he would still be a liar but thought ... hey why not try. You know  you can go to the MRI place and get a copy of your report. They are going to send you to a spine dr even if it's minor or major. It would put your mind at rest...when do you see the spine dr?
Just talking out loud...but when my bff left her addicted husband (after she got clean) we were all getting her moved into her new place and stuff and we were doing something and it was like....honey you can put your purse down now. She had to keep everything in it..her daughters ADD meds, her $$, her meds etc... it was sad and funny at the same time...she was like your right... and threw it up on the kitchen table!

[sadinmichigan]

I did have the mri and all my dang dr did was leave me a message that I needed to go to see a spine dr..I am waiting to hear back from him with some more dang details! UGGHHHHHH..oh yeah..and I have had all those conversations with him and more..he admits he's an addict..but he is still a liar...

[malenurse57]

It really bites that he would do this to you. 13 yrs is a long time in todays world But you have to put you and your kids first. I am sure things will work out and I pray for the best for you.
"T"

[joann1975]

lisa did you find out the results of your mri do you know if you are going to need surgery

have you ever told him if he would just be honest that he wants your pills b/c he is an addict you could deal w/it better (if that's true) or would he still continue to lie?

[sadinmichigan]

you know this is just one reason why I quit taking the damn pills!! The weight that was lifted for me personally was great..but not having to worry about hiding them and counting them and trying to figure out who is stealing them was like a huge mountain off my mind..

[malenurse57]

Yeah we all do but get it out of your system before it spills over in other areas. Go for it Girl. But be careful what you kick you are in enough pain as it is.

[sadinmichigan]

I AM SO F"ING PI$$ED!!!  I REALLY HATE BEING THIS MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!